I was on my knees, crying when he started to walk away. "I don't think it's good to stay with me when you aren't happy, so we can breakup if you feel that you don't belong with me. I cannot make u love me."
That's all that came out of my mouth before I was drowned in my own tears, unable to speak anymore. The thought of him leaving me was too much for me to bear, as I loved him more than I ever loved myself. I never ever remotely thought that I would be saying THIS to him. But I couldn't see him ignoring me, I couldn't see his "I love you" texts not reaching me every morning as they used to. So I decided to set him free, afterall you can't force someone to love you. "If he is meant to be with you, if he really would want that, he will be with you no matter what" and well I was scared to even ask it to my inner self what if he doesn't stay? "That would mean he never actually was yours" . Huh, a stupid dialogue I remember from a rom com. Maybe today my first love, my teenage romance will get over, I knew this, but I loved him too much to see him tied up in a relationship he might not want anymore. Strange little women I was, all that my young heart felt was as if it was my fault that he seemed to love me no more. And that little women thought it is her moral duty to let him out, still thinking so highly of him. I thought to say it to him myself, as I thought he is too good to hurt me and say all that himself.
So I called him up near the water cooler behind the stairs of our school. And I said those words. "I don't think it's good to stay with me when you aren't happy, so we can breakup if you feel that you don't belong with me. I cannot make u love me." And even after saying these words a hundred times in my mind before, the tears still came falling down.Yes, I cannot make him love me. But the inner me was just hoping that he will shoo all these thoughts of mine away, brush my teary eyes and hug me tightly and say "I love you, and there is no way I will ever leave you"
My worst fears came true. "Okay, as you wish", he said and walked away.