It was clear that the room temperature just dropped into a freezing state. Jonah became silent and Alicia shivered visibly in her seat. Jack rubbed the back of his neck clearly uncomfortable by the situation.
"I will not yield to your whims you egotistical maniac. You may be the son of this sweet lady beside me but that doesn't mean I will be agreeing to your decision. I did not invite you inside my house to chain me up and bring me with you."
" You are mine and I get to have the chance to court you to be mine" this man is positively losing a few screws.
" well you just did a terrible fool of yourself, I don't trust men anymore and you are not exempted. And right now you just proved to me your worth and purpose" I said grabbing another lime and biting it harshly and throwing it directly at his face.
I know now that he is livid, I can see it in his eyes, there is danger silently raging in those pools of blood.
" I will not tolerate this behavior of yours, if you are to become my woman you must not act like this. you are to be prim and proper like a-"
"a puppet... I WILL NEVER EVER BOW DOWN TO YOUR FEET AND PRAISE YOU LIKE A KING! YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A BRAT ON LEASH, YOU DON'T KNOW BOUNDARIES!"
Silence envelopes the room like a looming thunderstorm in the vast sea. Alicia tried to touch my arms but her hands were met with a shove. And Jack and Jonah were quick to steady her.
"Sister calms down it's not good for you and the baby, you might do something that will put you at the hospital. You don't know how to control your strength in rage, please calm down" Jonah is starting to get close, and the room started to close in on me like in a box, like metal bars that are trying to cramp me up to hold me down in place.
I never wanted this, why did Gio betray me like that with Gai my dearest friend? Why did Mother leave me, does she not want me, why did they love my brother's so much, why did dad never come to my birthdays why did I have to tell him to come rather than any normal dad that they would come on their free will?
Why did this man just come into my life normally? My mind started to cloud with sorrow and anger, the sorrow of loneliness and rage for everything that happened to me.
"DON'T YOU DARE TELL ME TO CALM DOWN, WHY ARE YOU SO CALM ABOUT THIS HUH?! I KNOW YOU DON'T REALLY LIKE ME AND THAT YOU ARE SO EAGER TO GET RID OF ME! AND YOU... YOU FUCKING BASTARD, WHY DID YOU DO WHAT YOU DID HUH WHY CAN'T YOU JUST COME INTO MY LIFE NORMALLY, I WOULD HAVE WARMED UP TO YOU NORMALLY TOO!"
I can't help it anymore, hot tears now fell like lava. It burns but not physically but emotionally. So that is why Grammy told me to never keep it inside. because when it's out it will destroy your resolve and might give up.