As I said earlier I had this clear in my mind that she is out of my league so asking her out was out of question, as suggested by her father we exchanged number and initially our conversations were to the point and only if one of us needed help from another. With time it grew and in our conversations got longer and less formal to informal.
Things were going good cause I had no expectations at that time she was talking to me was more than enough for me( I know it's low self-esteem and yeah I was struggling with it at that time).
One day we were sitting in cafeteria and she was low so I asked her "what's bothering you? is everything alright?" to which she just nodded but it didn't look convincing so I asked her again this time she replied " I had a fight with my boyfriend last night and now he is not talking to me." Although I knew there was no chance for me but still that line hurt more than it should have. I kept my composer and asked her about what happened if she wants to talk about it? She refused and said she is not in the mood we had our coffee and left the cafeteria for next lecture.
I didn't see her for next week nor we texted cause now I had that feeling that I might be disturbing them what if her boyfriend got mad cause she talks to me etc etc these were the thoughts that were running in my head.
After a week I see her she called my name and asked me how I have been and when I asked where she has been? she said she went home and it was for good cause she met her boyfriend and sorted things out, I was happy for her but still I was angry or sad I don't know I was feeling something which is hard to describe I tried to distance myself from her and succeeded to an extent till that day when it all changed!!