long long ago it's 2011 March a time when board exam end and a new life start to blossom. It's the time between summer and exam result when I had opened my first Facebook account at my best friends home. I was very much excited and afraid too , my best friend uploaded one of my traditional pic and then deleted too. After result came I was happy by scoring good marks and told my parents to buy a phone for me, they happly accepted and buy a Nokia . It's the best time for me having phone with camera and my friendship memories which now, we can captured. Day passed I got a request from one of my senior passed out student of our school and after checking his photo gallery I was very much impressed because for me my school is my life and that person having almost many old and new school pics in his gallery. Then he message me and the chat out go on then after few days he purposed me
I take only 2 day time to say him yes, I asked 2 of my friends and they say just say yes it's your first purpose, I was also very much excited and accepted him. Then the day go on, on it's path. In my family at that time my parents fight a lot and it was like they may had divorced. My mother just left the quarter and go to her brother's home and me and my younger sister too with my mother. And then after few days we went to our nana's home and at there I have chickenpox. For me that time was like I need him want to talk with him a lot but still we had distance. Day passes and everything shot out and my mother again back to home and we too. That year was so bad for me I just failed in my 11th. And then my parents decided to take to bhubaneswar or the city near us . I again asked him he say nearer one so I choose that one then again life take a turn over that 2 year at hostel was so difficult for me to live without him. Then after that 2 year I came back but our relationship doesn't have that love at all.
for me nothing changed but he was changed, then I went to bhubaneswar for higher studies like graduation we still have contact we each other but after half month he start to fight with me and asked every time for break up. I carried pleased him for don't leave me but then I realised how should I forced any one who doesn't love me to be in a relationship . And finally we have that break up with time I realised for him I was just a fantasy not the girl who can be his love. I remind each n every mistake of his which he done like slept with another girl for happy sex and always forcing me for sex it was like why God it take too long to see the real face of that man.
Next chapter of my life again another mistake blindly believe again a boy.
Time passed it take me some time to move on and forget him, at that time a have a new friend in this city who always talk to me and motivates me to move on and come out from that pain. Again time passes and both we had a good bond we share friendship memories time movie notes and just a time come we close to each other . That time was best time of my life after my 10th from 2014 Jan to August it's all fine ok, but as we know true love doesn't exist ,with me that happened I came to know all his flirt chat with other girls from my best friend whom once he purposed and she say no , I knew this but still as my best friends is having a boy friends and she move on so I just say yes to that boy and also asked him shall I told about us to my best friend but he say no let it be she may jealous and all so I agree what ever he say and never ever told any one about us in our friends circle. As time passes the boy I am with come to see him with other girls too whom he is flirting with and then realise yes my best friend was right . But I was very much connected to that boy so I can't leave him and accept all his mistake angry upon him but his love melts me and life goes on. Then a time come when he had to study outside some where and have to left that city , first I cried as always but then say yes you must go but stay in touch with me and when ever you come must meet me. Everything was still ok but then when ever he come to his home he just told me yes I am here but don't have time to meet me because of his lot of work related to his home, I still managing to continue our relationship but then a time come when he says let finished all and just be friend like we are before, i asked him why should I make some mistake or you fall in love with someone else, he answered nothing. I beg in front of him please don't do this again with me. He say I am with you ok but as a friend so I asked if in future you feel something for me again then What you do , he say again become close, for me the answer was like is I am a toy or prostitute with whom you do any thing when ever what ever you want but can't love .Then I left he, he studied 2 year outside and when ever he come to city he must visit our home but I hide from him and never ever talk with him for that 2 year may be that was my mistake but the pain he give me was like not let me to go in front of him . That 2 year was like wooden piece for me I want to meet him but I can't, then time passes a also go to another city for higher studies and one day my parents cal me to see a boy for marriage on that day he also come to our home after that marriage boy gone and when he came to know about my marriage he just like so much emotionall as my mother say . For me he is everything after my mother is even can't see a drop of tear in his eyes so I called him and after that 2 year me meet again it was like God also want us to meet again . That 2 year was like a surviving journey for me without him. I even not loved any boy in that 2 year but when I came to know about him his purpose to another girl I again became like broken mirror, what ever dreams I saw again come to an end he tried a lot to get everything clear but my ego doesn't let me and I left him because of his play boy character but still can't live without him.
I again tried to make him fall in love with me and forget all his mistake again but I failed,this time he say what ever we had in between us was just friendship and he can't marry me ever due to cast and never ever also loved me in his life it was all attraction just. I again broke in my life because I accepted all his mistake he done with me by doing something with other girls but this time just want a promise from him to change his casonova image but he denied and say if he fall again then he must told me . The questions is that then what I am in his life and why God do this with me again and why me . why and how a boy can be with other girls when he still having me why he can't once remind that there was a girl who blindly believing and loved him . why such creatures exist in this world for whom girl means only fantasy physical or sex why that girl can't be his love .
She never asked you for gifts ever in his life
she lie at home to spent our and our with you for whom 11 pm is also not too much.
she never judge you by your cloths or status
she never in these 2 year fall in love with any other guy
she even tried but can't forget you still want to marry you by know that u having other relations with others too
she doesn't believe in caste for her love have its own way
for her you is everything life enjoy joy happiness sad alone and all
She can wait till age 70 for you
for her you is everything
just a promise not let her go and be with her only love her only
you can't do this simple promise to her
This is the story of today's world reality where a boy or girl who even destroy there whole life or spent there whole life to make that person happy for whom you are just a fantasy not love .
This is how I can't even get one truthful person in my life and how people used me as a fantasy and now I can't live can't die only surviving like the concept of the Darwin
and now love is like a dream for me
and that boy was like for fare light year from me.