The word I said to him was hurting me more, to tell him to go to that woman and live his life was the worst thing I said, I did not to want let go of him, but if I will bring sadness and troubles to his life I prefer to stay away from him at the end nothing is working between us, every time there is problem appear out of nowhere and this does not look like those from before, it is out of my control.
"no, never, I will not let go of you, I spend all my life dreaming of you to be with me, I know I made a mistake but I swear I will never do it again, please mica, please"
"I said no"
My tears fall down, it really hurt, I really love him but things will not go as we went, there are always obstacles in our way, it looks even God did not want us to be together.
I pushed him and stood and take few steps away from him toward the door ,wiping away my tears that were flowing like river nonstop, not till he grab my hand and pulled me back toward him, and hugged me, I yelled at him to let go of me, and hit him on his chest and his back, but he did not flinch at all, I got tired and give up at the end to his embrace.
It was warm and very nice hug I ever had in my life, I felt his lips going down on my neck as he was brushing my hair to the back of my ear, I glared at him and told him to stop, he did not care for what I said and kissed me all of sudden, and I was eaten alive, it was not teasing kiss or just normal kiss. It was so passionate and I could barely able to breath, my lips are hurting like hell, he kept biting my lower lip and licking and kissing it again over and over again, I felt my head is about to fall from it place and my neck was hurting from the way he was pulling my head toward him so roughly with his hands.
"S...top...ahh"
I pushed him away but it was useless, instead when I pushed him I fell to the bed instead of pushing him back and he get in the top of me, no way not this position again, I heard him whisper in my ear.
"You do not give me chance but to do this, I am sorry"
"No, wait do not..."
My heart was beating like crazy , the way that Alex was acting was not normal he looked like drunk monster, the moment I landed on the bed falling back from the impact trying to hit him was the worst thing I did.
No longer after I fall, I found him on the top of me, I felt my temperature to raise all of sudden, I am sure my face is like tomato now, to make it worse he leaned toward my ear and said words that send shiver down my spine.