It was June , in odisha my native place it was too hot , I was so excited as my marriage has fixed for the date 11. It was an arranged marriage. I was only 23 expecting my post graduation results. That time I was very confused whether to go for higher studies or to be get married. With the confusion I had given my consent to my family for marriage.
Ch 2
Up to two years of married life everything was right. After that I have started realised that my husband is ignoring me. I have taken it normally as I was preparing for my second year exams. I was busy and didn't take the matter seriously. After my post graduation I was expecting a baby. And my husband's negligence towards me now was a habit for me and I also got the habit to make myself busy with my kid and other works. Days were rolling and the distance was becoming wide and wide. Though I was feeling so lonely I couldn't express my feelings to anyone. To get rid of this I have enrolled myself to PGDCA.That time Tanisha my daughter was 10 years old. I was trying to keep myself busy with Tani and my studies. But the ignorance and negligence of my husband towards me was growing and it was unbearable. I tried my best level to be a good wife but no hope. It was so exhausted for me now to bear such injustice that I was tolerating without any reason.The frustration was on peak. I wanted to share all my pain and sorrows to someone who can condole me,who can understand me.
Ch 3
To my despair I have started to search online friends in a social site to curtail my loneliness in my free time. After some days I have found an online friend Rishi who was giving maximum of his time to make me ease to make me feel that I was not alone more. Each and every time he was behind me.It was the first time I was getting a friend through online.We both were giving each other as much time as we can.Slowly this friendship turned into love unknowingly.I was just mad in his love and could do anything for him.Each and every word of his was an order for me.I was just followed him blindfolded. One day he insisted me to come to his place to start a new life.As I was only in that situation able to follow him. I was happily accepted all his orders without getting into any conclusions. He told me he was single but he will take some time to marry me and after marriage he will be able to take the responsibility of Tani as father. All of his words were magic for me as I had got rid of the hell that I was living for 15 years without any sin. I took divorce from my husband and as Rishi was yet not married to me and was not settled I was not able to claim my child,s custody.
Ch 4
Time was rolling and neither Rishi was marrying to me nor he was showing his interest to allow me to take the custody of Tani. In the mean time my ex marries again and as usual happens ,my child was tortured with the hands of her step mother.Now it was unbearable to tolerate all these things. I felt I was very badly cheated by two men by being innocent. Now I had made my mind to take the legal custody of my child and as I was expecting , these two ugly men protested a high along with all my family members. But this time I was stubborn to take back her custody. As I didn't have money to take any kind of legal action I had to made my life in danger to take her back to me. With a high life risk I was able to take back the custody of my child. First time I felt a silver lining in the black cloud. That cunning man had not given me anything and for my child as maintenance,only a pitiance allwoance was there. Here Rishi was also not able to take responsibility of a grown up kid as he was also struggling financially. In such a situation I had forgotten my existence only to give my child a good environment and position to live. Now I had taken Rishi as guilty of these all incidents.I had pressurised him to marry me as well my stuggle for getting a job was on continuing.But now he was not even to listen about marriage.Insisted by me and under pressure he lied a lot and even often he was out of home for days to avoid such pressure. The things were worsening day by day.As I had cheated very badly by these two men all my frustrations were on Rishi as at least he must marry me as he was promised as it was a long six years with him.He was not able to handle my frustrations and violence and even he was not ready to marry me as he was promised. And even he was not ready to accept that he was cheating me.Only he could do that telling lies and keep himself away from home several days.He was very afraid of the violence now. And to my part now I was being stubborn to know the truth that why he is cheating and lieng on me.But to all my vain I was unable to find out truth even Rishi's real house,s address to know the truth that I was suspecting many a days. Now the violence was on peak and with the fear Rishi was not coming to home since two weeks.I was also became adament that I will not call him to return to home as his absence was traumatic for me.In such a situation once a call comes to me from a guy who treats me as elder sister. He discloses the thing that Rishi is married before he was in my contat and now he can produce a number of evidences to prove it. As he was told everything was true and,what I was supecting about him were all also provided true. The land under my feet slided and I felt like drowned and burst into crying. I was only not crying that day the sky ,the mountain,the nature, all the things around me also were crying along with me.Rishi came to convince me that all the things I came to know all were lies.But he was caught red handed.Now he had nothing to say not a single word,he ran away to escape himself and made himself underground.I was in my coffin even not to stand on my legs even not to believe what was front me,I was in shocking depression up to 3 months.
It was only my daughter Tani who was with her mom to make her normal and yes I became normal by loosing everything at all cost during the course of time It was my child who dragged me from despair to hope.
Ch 5
Now I am a happy single parent after a lot of stuggle with life ,with my innocence ,with all distrust with all the conspiracies ,cut bruised but not lost. Now I am a strong woman ,strong mom and I am very proud of my child who had given me this status to live respectfully in this selfish world.