Today I got up at my usual time around 11:15 am. I usually get a text from my mom's "friend"/ex saying that we are going to the gym or to go to the store or something. Its not like I really have a choice ya know? It's literally the only freedom I will ever get. I thought going to the gym would make her go easy on me now, which didn't change a thing. She still complains about Me drinking water and how I should start losing weight. Then after she decides to say "hey lai how about in the mornings we do a workout here in the living room?" There is nothing wrong with that but in her words "You just like to complain." As if I'm complaining for no reason. She hurt me as if there were no seasons to change throughout the year. Like she definitely made sure that I was the one who was doing everything wrong. She treated me as if I were "one of her little friends." I am 15 and all I wish for is a bit of freedom. She has told me stories about what she did when she was younger. To be honest she thinks ill make the same mistakes that she did when she was my age. I am nothing like her besides my stubbornness I can stand up for myself and say no to everyone else but her.
July 27, 2022