How many wrong person should I be with until I can be with the right one?
I am zenny, 28 and a teacher. I have been with failure relationships and I am damn tired. I am now at the point of my life where I accept that I will be alone forever. I came from a poor family, I struggled so much to finish my studies. I had my first boyfriend at the age of 23. I am fond of reading pocketbooks, that instilled so much romantic views on my mind. I thought that he was the one for me. He is not handsome but he is very kind and that what makes me love him. He looks so damn innocent. Well, looks can be deceiving. In our relationship I found out that he has lots of flings and been doing indecent scenes behind my back. I was so broke when I found out. I lose weight, I became pathetic. After all that he had done, I still forgave him. I still accept him wishing he will change. Wishing he will not commit the same mistakes. Yet, he still did. It's true that once a cheater, will always be a cheater. Mock me, say all the worst words to me, but I just love. Yes, youre right. after all the nth time that he cheated I still forgave him. I became paranoid, insecure and losing doubt of my capabilities.
There, came a point that I asked God for guidance. I asked Him to give me sign when to stop holding on. He gave it. He immediately does. A girl chatted me, telling that he and my boyfriend will have a date. I went there, saw them. Had a confrontation with him and it broke my heart that he chose his new more than me.
And that gave me the courage to stop, to let go, and to accept the fact that there will be no him and me anymore.