4/1/2019 monday ---no browsing ended up writing

Vee againsts the world-Brianna villanueva-vee ir bree for short

This story is fictional and not based on a true story

Genre: romance

Era : 2019-millennial romance

Chapter1

The anticipation awaited our so called heroine Vee as her love that she ghosted,she has recontacted

Again.but it was only to end things but in a good note. So that there wouldn't be any bad feelings,but it ended up that they will see each other again .Vee does not know how to feel

Has Vee moved on?.Or does she still love alvin the way she used to.

But Vee knew that Alvin was using her

Sometimes she felt it could be different.but she needed to open her eyes

Love is dumb.even the smartest of people act differently or dont think when they are in love.

She couldn't love Alvin the way she used to

Alvin has someone.He's is a 7 year relationship

And does Vee wanna be that homewrecker seriously?

But why cant Vee quit him

Falling in love with someone is dumb

It just happens to you suddenly when you hang out alot

It just happens.

Vee was still confused was there still love or was it just pure boredom or maybe Vee was just lonely.

Vee honestly was fed up with men all together for a period of time.but Vee was straight

So she can't say she done with men.She just didn't meet the right man.

I think because Vee has bad taste in men.Vee is dumb don't be Vee.

Vee sometimes felt she should be a lesbian maybe it could be easier.

Her family told her that she can do better.but sometimes she doesn't know what she wants

I think every girl does.but she Why isnt love like the rom coms we watch

And have a slight happy ending ",not all things are like the movies"-Alvin

Pg 1

It took Vee 3 months to get over Alvin.She cried got drunk all the time.but still couldn't exchange Alvin.

Oh she tried she ended up crying.

Vee was a little "B"..hahahah 1 to 2 months she was on the break up feels.

Month 3 came.she was over it.

She thought of Alvin less.

She was using her time more wisely traveling working

Going out with friends having a LIFE...

Doing new things. But she couldn't end things with Alvin

She would keep thinking the what ifs..

Because Vee knew even if it was wrong.

She knew it was only this time.

She had the wrong mindset when they started that's all

Vee was single and thought

Anyway it's eventually gonna end

But she made it a point that She set no more expectations from him.she loved him

And knew they are just using each other.She wanted Alvin to pick her

Just like the movie"sleeping with other people"

But Vee was just living in a fantasy

She was just infatuated by Alvin.

But she accepted that now.She doesn't take offense that Alvin has a gf

Or has other hoes she be like its ok...His life his body but he should use protection though.Vee is one of those disturbed safety control freaks But Alvin is clean~that's important

If he like to cheat

He a "S" ADDICT ..yeah he is a hoe ...Alvin is a hoe.

I'd like to say he's a playa

But he's a chossy playa

I think all men are PIGS literally

But not all.but then you see the goodie two shoes guy

And "b"ches think "what a dork" but like I said

Not all men are evil.It's all in what what we perceive.

There are preferences .

.

As long as he's protected. ,And also EWE~~

I watched that movie recently

Sleeping with other people good movie~ pg 2

Sometimes you don't need to sleep with someone to fall in love.

I think sleeping with someone honestly ruins the relationship

The worse type is when you invest yourself emotionally that's when LOVE hits.

Apparently like every rom com

Everyone has different depiction of romance

I dunno why but it seemed that the past had it better when it came to falling

And being in love than now.

Now it's difficult to know

You second guess

Love is now digital.

CHAPTER 2

1.35 AM Tue

She knew that Alvin will never take her seriously.So she thought just go with the flow

Vee thought she had options ..

Honestly Vee had two options.and

Alvin was just a fling or just someone to waste time with

But at least it was worth it .

She thought two can play that game.

And even if Alvin was lying she just shoved it off

Vee was not stupid

She knew there were others

Alvin

"FF" it if I was gonna waste my time it should be worth my time.

Vee didnt wanna waste her time on guys she did not like

Vee tried the dating game

Still confused her.free movies food though.but the guy was gross.ewe~

It was really a waste of time .She tried the dating game

It was a big EWE on her part ,they never slept together

But she knew the guy wanted to

But she was like ewe

Pg 3

Vee has not contacted Alvin in the last 3 months.suddenly Vee texted Alvin.out of the blue.

Vee loved Alvin.problem was Alvin was already taken.but some girls like living on the edge.

Chapter 3

Vee was an odd girl. She doesn't say it but she does believe in romance. Vee thought

That there would be that connection.honestly it only happens a few times in your lifetime.

Sometimes we rely too much in the internet.

But that's not real love it's just a booty call.some say that they found the love of their lives

On the internet but that's a millennial connection ,

Not all things are found in the internet.

Some people find love also at work,in a bar but these things usually also don't work out.

Vee was lately dating this guy

He was single,but well played. He was a playa

But it was okay because he wasn't taken.

Vee's mom would tell her often it's better to be with a honest single man than a taken man that lies.

This single man was Tall had these greenish blue eyes,and he was tall 6'2

Fit.cute eyes.light hair

Nathan was dreamy

Vee never liked dating actually after ALvin she thought she'd lay low and not date.

Somehow she had a leave from work.

She went out with a girlfriend of hers for coffee.

Y know that feeling your not even asking for it.then wait for it

There are these exception guys.

God he was cute.and your friend be joking look look ..he looking at you.and you be like

No..he's so out of my league..

Then he approaches you.

And then asks you a corny pick up line But it depends on who's delivering it..you smile nod giggle like a little school girl.then you exchange contact info then the dating commences.

Vee learned a lot thru Nathan.Nathan was out going.Nathan gave Vee a big culture shock

Because he was so outgoing,also so open minded.

Since he was single it was okay to hold hands in public.he was even open minded enough to

Make out in public.

Nothing like Alvin where she had to pretend

That they're just friends and would have a big gap as they walk

ALvin was asian,just like Vee.

Nathan was single and dated a lot of girls ,and he had this silly accent,but hot though

Foreign men have this sexyness.

But it's not long term. But Vee knew that Nathan was nuts for her.

I dunno why but nathan was consistent.

Even if Vee had low expectation

Because Vee had something that other girls don't have

She's a good girl with a bit of bad balanced out.

Option A.

Nathan liked soccer, He played also he does refereeing

Or football what the europeans call it.He enjoyed playing it so he was active in sports.

He was into music too odd a guy enjoys love music

It was weird to Vee,he wasn't married.may be he was gay?

Nathan told Vee

"Y'know babe you need to meet a lot of people when you feel that one sticks you categorize by top 5

Then which one you like more you go for ''

He had this funny accent

But I think sticks cause a lot of women go crazy for him.

But i Know for a fact he sticks to Vee.he's a playa but he's consistent with Vee

Even his brother told Vee that He's not the type of person to care about any girl,but he did.

Vee and Nathan would have this joke He would say babe,your in my top 5

Vee would say yeah you too your there

Vee was your baby girl, If Vee would fall she would fall hard,but nowadays, Vee just wanted not to keep hurting

So Vee kept it light,Vee started to realize that she was tired of Alvins childishness ness

Vee needed a vacation from these guys that made stupid promises

Same drama

She'd rather be a friend than be stuck in this drama again

Chapter 4

Vee thought that Alvin was ready to see her she got ready,then he messaged "sorry babe im under the weather can we do this friday?

This was Monday before the friday that she declined to see him

It was a power trip with them

It isn't cute anymore

Vee knew it was a sign to say goodbye to Alvin

Alvin wasn't worth it

If he really valued vee's time

He would not reschedule

So he we are..to be continued

Vee wasn't pissed she was just accepting the fact that maybe there was not a what if

Maybe she was living in the past and she needed to embrace the future

Maybe ALvin was just a phase Vee needed to grow away

Love isn't like that

Vee thought

I'd rather wait a long period of time for someone who valued my time

Than someone who just wanted to control me.

So Vee prayed for the best for her bestfriend Alvin to find his way

Because It was not supposed to be them

Because Alvin has not changed,

Alvin Was selfish

And Vee needed to outgrow that.

Growing up is hard especially for men

But Men are good tech wise or like work wise

But men have crappy soft skills

Vee never was one of those b#$@ches

But she needed to be one because sometimes

People don't take you too seriously if your too nice

Or honestly take advantage of you

Maybe that was the problem with Alvin

He took Vee for granted,and she was tired of his bull

Vee knew that growing up was not as exciting as it looks but that's the best adventure that

We can start.when you grow you forgive.when you grow you choose to understand

Instead of getting angry.

Sometimes being angry is a short cry for help.but its misinterpreted

I guess we need to learn from kids

If a child is upset,you give them a time out

Then tell them "honey you need to think about your actions "

Honestly everyone has a different upbringing

We can't blame our parents how we turned out

It's on you if you can't fix yourself….

Everyone has different situation,but even if times may get difficult you try and look at the bright side.I dunno why

But when you trick yourself in believing "it's gonna be okay i swear to god"

It helps my mom used to be like that

Positive

She died though ..so now will just listen to my second mother

Who i swear to god is the strictest person ever but she made me who I am now and I'm so grateful she scared sh#$34tless to be a better person

With a bit of good and and a bit of sexy ahahah

I mean bad but in the right positioning

Shout out to them b#$#@ches that take no s#$#@t from no one

You the real mvp~

But in the end of the day we need to embrace everyone's difference

Be kind and find your worth

And in the end of the day

We need to say to haters "we good you'll f##@ck yourself first before i do "

Much love to yo'll~peace

And Alvin baby thank you for f@#2ng with my life

It made me realize i really wanna not f#2$k with you

Thank you baby~

You made it made worth my while to find my worth

And you aint it~

Chapter 5

Work vs Vee

Honestly work is kinda like school but you don't get a golden star you get a paycheck

And when you have a crappy attendance you get a deduction

When your in school you can always say "mommy i don't feel so good can i not go"

And we don't admit it we though but sometimes it's nice to have your parents to have your back,

We ask ourselves at a young age "god i wanna grow up and be a fun adult "

But being an adult is not fun.there is a lot of peer pressure out there and we never talk about it

Because having feelings would call you weak.

But it's how you deal with it.

Vee had strong trust issues with other people,she may be friendly but she honestly

just likes to observe the surroundings.lame at is sounds everyone can depict you by word

Sometimes it's really up to you to believe in them or not

I choose to think that we need to give people the benefit of the doubt,

My dad usually would say that " everyone is a bad guy in someone else's story "

But i think not everyone is bad,just misunderstood.

Have you ever thought of the saying

The more you hate the more you love..

Also I'm in a point in my life that it doesn't matter what people think of you or say about you

As long as the important people in our life still believes in you that matters more .

"Honestly it's better to mind your than put your nose in other people's business"

That's what my superior would say...

Everyone is a part of our lives testing us or either letting choose its either to be angry at them

Or try to understand them.

But as much as possible be civil

Also don't take things personally

Not everyone honestly cares 20-70 rule

20 % does care 70 enjoy the misery

It's all constructive positioning with people.

I've seen and heard a lot of things from people about other people

Why do you think I call them other people .

You know what was the most hurtful you trust someone that you thought would have your back after you forgave them multiple times.Then they have the balls to destroy you

Make up these outrageous stories about you .to make them look good

No that's a "villain disguised as a hero "

And you all the while trusted them was vulnerable,gave them apart of you that you would have wanted private but you ended up revealing all about yourself.because of that one friend that destroyed the trust the bond.some people like playing

With you even friendships get ff ed up sometimes

But that hurts more

"Your so called friend " but now honestly you just forgive and understand

Even if others don't want to you need to be an adult

We are not young forever

We can be healthier though

Look young but think matured that's good.

Vee thought she should get better friends.

Then Vee asked herself why do attract these assh$##$les

Maybe because she used to be one,and sometimes you feel sorry for them.

But not assh%$$%les and dicks are like this

Some were just strong

And we just labelled them incorrectly.

It is true better to mind your own business

Some dicks or a hole's can change its all in the environment

And always check yourself .

You need a strong leader not to be told what to do

But to be molded to be a better person ..

Some people rant about their leaders but they forgot

That they're leaders are people too.

Nathan would often tell Vee" be more bi$#5cher babe~ kiss kiss emoji ' hahahahahaha

Then Vee remembered she can be but she just choose not to be.

Because if it doesn't matter where you came from honestly

It's how you bring yourself.

When you start dicking around

It reflects on your parents.

And if your a dick your parents were dicks.

But sometimes you can't always act like a victim

And make some sob story even if it was true,you can't keep living in the past.

Real maturity starts by being anxious for the future

Because you are afraid to ff up your future

And your more careful with your words your actions towards everyone

Now thats real maturity there

Because your parents cannot define you

No matter how screwed up they are

You need to forgive your parents

They had you at a young age,and did you really ask them how hard was it to raise you ?

The only way for you to learn is have kids of your own

Now everyone is afraid of kids

But when you do have them you'll change as a person

You will be stronger and better.

Because people who make excuses are weak.

Because they run away from consequences.You don't know the person your dealing with sounds lame but you gotta trust your gut with people.

You can't live in the past.because everyone has a chance to prove you wrong ...

that's why Vee envied kids they always see the good in everyone.

Sometimes the past will bite you in the ass.so you just need to access yourself first

Sometimes people say Vee was "gullible"

As one of her work mates said

But you need to give what you recieve ,and choose to do the right thing.

Its called karma. I thought this belief was not real but it is

Vee experienced this first hand.

But it's real.so that's why you should be careful in every person you meet .be kind

Be civil be respectful,be humble.

You don't know what they've been thru.

But don't be too merciful. you'll be taken advantage of.

That's why Vee had trust issues .you can't always be "gullible"

You also need to be assertive sometimes and follow your gutt"

Also still be kind to everyone,we ain't perfect.

Sometimes you need to burn yourself first

So in the end of the day if people did judge you it came from you first.

And it's okay to be bad your only human

No one is perfect.

Just be according to the world.

And there are times your tired it's the most easiest excuse.because

Tired is accepted than your real bieng.

There are also good people "you just know"

There are people we can confide in

And will always feel they just know and y know them

You really need to connect with the ones that make sense.

The best type of person to be around with is a honest person without a filter

Cause these people have integrity

There are times the most hurtful advice that speaks volumes of truth

Are the best types of advises.

We surround ourselves with different people

Like I said it's better to understand than judge

You really don't know how long you'll be here in this earth so be kind

And always treat everyone equally

But not everyday we can be positive,but if we're pissed we honestly need to calm ourselves down and choose to understand like I said than be angry

It will reflect back on you

honestly ...

Chapter 6

Vee vs Alvin

Continuation

Vee would think that sometimes it's supposed to be nice to be someone that actually gets you.

But that was just an a illusion it wasn't love merely a fling that went wrong .

She just thought he was the one.He was everything that Vee ever wanted

Asian ,tall, smart funny and had this something.He was so asian.duh he was chinese

Those families be strict as aff.You watches crazy rich asians right?

Not all chinese families be like that y'know.some hahaha

But Vee found herself just trying to let him go.

For Vee love was unconditional.

She knew the truth but choose not to say words

Y know that instinct that he did not change.but sometimes you can't help but miss that person no matter how much lies and betrayal had happened

Because the experience you with that person

Was perfect.. Alvin was more than a fling

He was her best friend.That's what hurt the most.

She wanted more he didn't.karma 10 years later

Karma is real,Vee used to love this guy before but she was too young,she was 19 he was 29

He wanted marriage.She wanted to mess around

Y know hormones.then even if loved her she cheated.got pregnant.from another guy.long story short.

She wasn't miss perfect

That's why like I said.We tolerate what we can

But best to be honest than build up in lies .

God it was hard,when we were younger you make such dumb decisions in your life.

But every mistake is a lesson learned

Vee wanted to thank Alvin,thank you for the lesson

Thank you for the time ..thank you for choosing me hahahah lol``

Thank you for everything ..

Stay as you are

I just wanna remember as you were in a good light

Because i love you

And you used to be the person i wanted

But we really should move forward should we not?

All things moving happen for a reason maybe we needed this.to know what we really wanted in our lives..

I hope you well .you and your girlfriend.

I just missed the you.that was my bestfriend thats all ..

Maybe i was being selfish you belonged to someone first

And letting you go is good

They say if you let go of the person that you love

And they still come back maybe ..maybe it was meant to be

But that's only in the movies or in fairy tales.this isn't a fairy tale or a movie.

This a story of a girl confused but not lost.

But wouldn't it be awesome to fall in love and run to the airport before it's too late

And scream your the one I love you..but that's silly

But romantic..

Sometimes Vee realised what her sister said was right

Honestly men take such a long time to mature.

If you can't find the right guy

Don't waste your time on guys that you have no point in pursuing.

Picture that guy your dating and think 5 years ahead

Any turn off you see in him

Address it forwardly

Like if he has ugly feet

He smells funny

He's like losing hair

He has a SH^%8TY ATTITUDE

lol

Would you still love him?

My sister said she broke it off with a guy cause he had weird feet.

And he wasn't a bad guy

He was so sweet,he was a only child they're family had a construction company

He was in a famous band, he was good looking.

But she said "ewe" his feet

She said "seriously you wanna wake up to that gross toes

Maybe she's right you need to have standards.or be with someone out of your league to challenge yourself...

I should date younger men. They are dumber than me in a way

Relationship wise.and we can mold younger men .but they have life skills

A little.. oh my god~~eyes rolling I Tried a college student in med school

He was smitten with me.young men be clingy

I ghosted him.i wanted a fling he wanted a relationship..

I dunno wtf(SERIOUSLY)

Ewe millennial love hahahahhahaha

Or maybe 5 years younger than me

25 is okay but these guys are dicks they were born in the 90's.

Thats gonna e friday morning with my

Young banker "why he so thirsty?"

A Customer on the phone told me don be ghetto

Lol I'm asian

But i love the way you talk man ...lol

21 be so thersty hahahahahahahha but it's a business relationship.

But still I miss you,but still the more i prolong I see you,my feelings become stronger

Whats wrong with me?

Do i enjoy rejection?

It was so much easier going to work.because it distracted me.Id work myself

And count every penny I'd be making without you

But the more i prolong not seeing you

I'm going crazy wanting to see you.

I thought I was over you but that instant you'd text me

My knees go weak,my hands shake and I become so obsessed with you ,

What did you do to put this spell on me?

You were my batman.

I'm still in love with you Alvin~(there is love but were not in love again i repeat)

Why can't I get over you

Why is so hard to let you go,,

Why can't i let you go.(wtf vee!)

But I can't tell you that you'll have a big head and you'll take me for granted again

( that's right use your brain girl)

That's what's so ff ed up

You made my life turn upside down.

I can't help it

I can't help it

God I miss you like crazy

But I have to be strong,

Baby I tried

I Have babe but why is it still you~

Nathan is far away maybe that's why

I guess if someone be reading"oh my god Vee you whore"

CHEATER BITCH?

Well excuse you chauvin·is·tic pigs

When men whore around

You be gentlemen

Or play boy or bachelor not hoes well excuse you and your side pieces

Ouch im hurt..

I'm a side piece side chick thats what my sister says hahahahahaha

And women are whores?

Excuse me ..other be low key whoring,at least Im honest,we all be messed up in a way

Finding love is hard why do you think we test all types of waters

Lol test the waters

At Least if Im whoring around.its worth my time

If i whored around you'd be so lucky that I gave you the time of day

Time is money and I could have done other productive things with my life seriously?

But learned alot this year

Learned not to force things,stay away from dating apps it's just trouble.

Where do you think I found ALvin?

Just follow flow,Nathan was not expected I actually gave up on meeting men.

I've been burned.

But i learned that its normal it's like sales move to the next.

Out of 8-10 will say no but the 2% is the yes.

I enjoy conversations with Nathan I learned a lot

Mostly when you meet someone romantically you shouldn't expect.

Just follow flow he is a hoe

But at least he's single,he told me karma will not bite him

He made no promises.

He european so they are more open minded than the asians.

It's nice learning new cultures.accent be like the frozen sales guy in frozen

"Okay babe,so sexy babe..be a good girl babe"

Cute and very open minded

They be crazy,but hot.

He has these blue ish green eyes light hair

And fit and tall

He's a looker not a keeper,later on he revealed he was a boss

But i didn't expect that ,God is good..gives you what you don't expect thank you lord.

But i know he can't let me go,I'm not bragging here

I'm in his top 5,

But he's my no#3 lol

But in my list no#1 needs to be that guy Id marry

Because once you're held down you can be that fun parent

That nags your kids.making swag kids lol

He fulfilled the gap between that boss fantasy,I think everything was a part of that boss fantasy.

Alvin also was a part of the Boss fantasy

Why? Am I messed up,I watch too many 50shades of f^&*^86cked up

You divert any feelings when you know it's wrong to something attainable,every minute every second of our lives is calculated and You would like to waste that time like I said with something or someone that was worth your time.

Because YOLO is overrated

Because you "only die once."-snoopy So make the best of your life once

At Least you tried and made sure you have no regrets.we make mistakes but you need to prove some people wrong

Living in the past even for a moment is okay

But your not embracing the new in the future honestly.

Yo'll need to accept then move on

Nice one Vee.. you talk the talk did you walk the walk?

-one of the smartest guys i know

He okay in my book.

I think everything has a purpose and in our lives we just need to structure it in a a good attitude and mindset.

I just miss Alvin

Because he was my baby~

He was Ahole but why am so attracted to that

Maybe it's because I was the 2nd child and my ultimate go to is the Eldest child.

And I'm very turned on and associated to that.I like bossy men

Wtf is wrong with me?

Alvin was my go to guy when i needed to nag or complain,I complain a lot

I don't look like it

I love to nag and whine

He'd usually have something snarky or sarcastic to say.but he had a point

Every single time.

But I secretly loved it.

He acted so differently when I was with me.He would be this cute kid when we were together

He's face would light up when he had something serious to say.

He was so into technical stuff..

He wanted to be engineer..

But y know asian parents be like son "you need to be nurse" so he's a nurse.

He still enjoys his technical stuff and his annoying phone games?

Da fuq..hahahah

We are so opposite but why do we compliment each other so well

He was like my best friend

All I wanted was him

But I think that was only me..

There were so many times my Older sister told me move on

Stop it he's no good to you ,your just a side chick wake up

ma5$^45ther f%%^%6ker...

He was my BOY~.

Or I used to think he was..

and made silly angry faces,

Then id just kiss his stupid face tell him

"Baby it's okay"

There was a connection.or maybe I'm just a whore

God I miss him..but i can't tell him that because he wins

never told him

When he does that I just loved that.he's a angry bird

My sister said he looks like a elf

And he's gross

Maybe sister knows best

What can I lose if i actually listen,right?

He was my baby-Vee seriously?

But I can't let him win

Whatever he treated me before I will reflect that

He likes to tell me

"Baby i can't"

I've been feeling under the weather

Yeah i have a cold cough cough

Let's do friday ok

Were power tripping

Where in a relationship where i dunno what the hell were doing

BO YOU WHORE!!!!

Well well dick

We can play

"Hi alvy i'm texting you in advance

that we can't do

Friday We have a thing with my sister again monday.so sorry,see you cheers

No emoji.

Ok just message me-alvin

I swear monday- vee

We are in a point that we don't chat constantly

Did the love die?

See i don't flake i even tell you in advance you pompous dick

A Lot of things been happening and I do have limited time

He is an ass

He should go screw he's other hoes you whore

God OMFG!!!! DICK DICK

He should whore around WITH PROTECTION

WHORE FFING WHORE

I don't care

Oh ff u !! grrr

Cry emoji wtf?

Chapter 7

FANTASY VS REALITY

I was never planning to see banker kid

But he's a sales person and you need quota

Maybe it's God's will..

Tomorrow friday morning 9-10am banker kid

Wtf? It's a business proposal

Dammit im his sales quota,do i look rich to you kid?

It's different with banker Steven kid-(every guy is different dumbass.)cute NO FEELING THOUGH

Crushing though something new something blue something that I cant touch

I cant hahahahahahaha

AH DUH we can't he's too good for you

Too young omfg..

He's 21 hes tall ..6'1(tall guys are the best they look like this very hot sexy tower ) he asian with glasses clean cut hair spiked,has that i'm lost look

He's so ivy league "he's from LA SALLE

My mommy and daddy are politicians

My dad's a politician don't ff with me

We be strict as aff

DAMN~ rich kid hahahahahaha

Kid im too old for you I'm 30

Nice slacks white polo sometimes blue sometimes dark blue slacks sometimes khakis

So fresh

Such soft hands,

makes me feel old

Calls me ma'am just because I have a kid you treat me like an old lady

Seriously?

Just because i was born in the 80's

You saw me tired out from work well you should see me well rested and ready

EXPECTATION:

Will exercise, I need to look sexy bi%^%

Well it's his fantasy maybe he has thing for single mom

Damn prick okay

Ahhahaha

early in the morning.take a shower

Look for a nice spaghetti white preffrebally

Tits out b#$#54vch cardigan pencil skirt that's what my ate told me

Heels make up

Should i wear a thong

I dunno we need to feel sexy (WTF)

God i need to get laid rolling eyes

Curl hair a bit,then im not sure if im older should I buy coffee?

Convo

Me in the coffee shop

Waiting

Him in his light blue long sleeve shirt,tucked in sleeves tucked and his hair gelled spiky hair fresh as aff and a lacoste

Scent... black slacks or grey

Black shiny shoes.pen in his long sleeve shirt

Me being snarky. I can be Im older

Me sitting looking at my phone

Then i stand up I wave

CONVO

"Oh hey there banker steven…

Hug no hug? K fine ..Hug then kiss on the cheek

Oh hi so were talking about the insurance thing for my daughter right?

Let's get things straight to the point ok banker steven

Analytical explanation plans

Me thinking

b$4ch be confident hhahhah dont fu%%^46k up

Dont be a dork dammit

Be cool we cool

Oh fake you hahahahahahah

Oh naughty girl

Cheeky lol

Hhahahahahahahah

When i see him act natural b$#$34 act natural

STEVEN CONVO: SALES TALK SALES TALK BUY BUY BUY

Go's closer legs crossed leans closer touches his arm

Then whispers quite slowly

ME: Oh okay banker steven,i'll think about it.

ALsooo i wanna tell you that..I was thinking about you all the day and all i want to do is..y know

Do you wanna know a secret? (whisper slowly in ear

Tongue moves slower when talking )

Leans in closer moves hand to his hair caressing it softly

Then she says:

Y know what think your really cute with your lost puppy look

Mmmm i could eat you up..grr

And did I tell you I'm not wearing anything

i know you're really young and all but like…I can teach you things….do you want to? When do you get off ? i can get you off ...do you want to? Ohh you lost baby

You should try new things than be stuck in

your god forsaken job? Or better off

Let's get out of here and do something that I've been

Waiting all day long before seeing you

She gives that twinkle in the eye

That says its on

Then she says;

Come on ..i'll make it worth your while,I'll make you forget your name...

Haahahahhaahahhahahahahahahhahahahahhaahhahahahahha JOKE

ahahhahah

STEVEN is all sweaty,the sweat moves to his head to his toes he is tense

He has no words

You can see him clenching his teeth he is nervous.he's thinking omfg

This girl is a freak but he wants to but he can't

What about the quota ?

Oh fuck it pussy is pussy

Hahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahah

Steve makes himself composed,then he says

Where do you wanna go I have 2 hours

He took

Hahahahahahhahahahahahahhahaha

Steven : I've never done this before miss Vee

Steve is excited steve likes danger steve is usually safe and boring but today

Steve is on a fantasy journey

Steve was nervous anxious but steve wanted this

He thought omfg

Omfg this is so exciting

Must look serious serious steve needs to be serious

Play it cool pretend you are cool hahahahahah

Vee : baby i'll take you places you only imagined about,also don't worry this is okay your parents are strict and mine are too

We need to be bad sometimes too y know

I'll teach you

Were gonna have a good relationship,business wise pleasure too

But you have to make it a secret okay,2 hours tops

Oh i'll take care of you

Taxi opens , door closes you say that place where you need to go .they get off the taxi

They book a room .she takes his hand

She tells him its okay

You've never been to place like this before?

He smiles

Yeah i did um yeah- lies

Rich kids never get ass,rephrasing rich kids are good kids who secretly wanna be bad

Room door opens closes ..Lights go on,lights go off ..

They sit quietly on the bed

Turn on the tv,she says you have protection?

Steve : i was not ready

Vee; its ok i have some in my bag

Steve: SHOOK

VEE BE LIKE thinking :WHY SUCH A VIRGIN STEVE? AHHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHA

Thinking wtf seriously?

This is the problem you gotta be alpha with kid wtf?

She looks at him

She looks at him

She just laughs he laughs

She looks at steve

and then says its ok i was peer pressuring you

I Dunno why we ended up here

This is silly

Lets talk..

Steve what are your expectations of me ? is this a fling ?

He takes his glasses and puts it on the side of the table

Then he say : I want you~

Vee ; SHOOK

She becomes hesitant ,moves far away then hits him

Noo~i dunno what was thinking .I was kidding.i was taken by the moment banker steve

Y'know i dunno

Steve ; Jokes are half meant,Vee (serious voice)

He Slowly lean in.touches her hair pulls her close then grabs her with his might

She was like damn he has strength?

Omfg

She closes her eyes they kiss

Her lips chappy his wet in her mouth moving

His hands moving slowly

They don't fuck they just talk then take a nap you happy reader hahahahah

Steve became the man that day even if Steve was young Vee underestimated steve

Steve was a man and sometimes in the end of the day its the man that leads

Not the women

CONVO

On the bed laying looking into each other

Steve : I really like you

Vee ; you don't even know me, I have kid

Steve; but you don't have a husband right?

Vee: I don't..but still this is wrong

Steve ; Another round?

Vee; bite~crazy the time

Steve : naughty you'll give me a hickey?

Vee : what? NO hhahhah

Steve: can you be mine?

Vee: your too young,this wont work.your just a kid

Steve ; I may be a kid but I have everything planned out in my life but can you be a part of it

I really like you and I wanna know how you think

Vee; dammit steve.you think i have a brain

Steve whaat? Ahhahaha your funny

Vee: you need to find a nice girl without kid

Your gonna disappoint your parents

Steve; vee, its my life

Don't tell me my Parents will sleep with me.

And besides we can make it work can't we?

Vee; You sure ? your ready for that kind of responsibility? Kids

Omg steve steve steve

Honey you need to go ff up your life first

Your 21

Get back to me 5 years

Steve : I want it to be you

Vee ;honey Im flattered,but I don't wanna be a reason that your wasting your time when there's a lot of opportunity for other pussy

Steve; younger girls are hard

Vee ; they weren't born in the 80's

Steve ; nother round?

REALITY VS FANTASY

She did not wake up early

She woke up drank herbalife ate fried chicken

Got ready at 9 then arrived 10.30am

She was ambushed

The head of the insurance and the insurance agent was there then steve.

From fwd thingy she was pressured she needed to dish out 4000

She was fucked again

Do i look rich to you?

Gullible Vee ..IDIOT

Long story short

They are gonna commit to a good insurance for the kids.

Growing up is hard.but i guess it's another adventure in itself

We grow we move forward and we become a different people every year.

END

CHAPTER 8

Suprise suprise

Life has these surprises.

You are anxious because your growing up and you get these mini panic attacks because your getting older.You become fearful with all your decisions and you become this anal

Control freak.

Then your always paranoid for no reason at all.

You used to be chill.fun go with the flow.cool ,fun to be around.

Then BOOM your 30.you are a half adult half child put in the middle having

A crisis thinking wft am i doing with my life.

Your complaining constantly.Your body is not as strong as you were in college.

If you don't take care of yourself you get sick

You'd rather netflix and chill alone emphasis ALONE NO CHILL.maybe try go to the mal & window shop.

You are happy when you actually can see a beach or be in the mountains (I really like city view) and not a stuffy office.

You count the days and months you save your income to have that vacation that you 've been working hard on.

YOU'D RATHER NOT go drinking till 8 in the morning with people who barely know you

Or label you.Then you smile but you have trust issues

So you just awkwardly smile

Then say "pass"

It's not like we hate people.as you get older you choose the people that you spend time with

And you want them to make sense.not nonsense

And that time cannot be taken back

You don't want to waste all your time and energy on people

That won't make it worth your time.

Frankly your wasting time.

But honestly no one knows the real you

As the japanese said there are 3 faces we show the world

The face that we face the world with

The face we show our family friends

But the most beautiful face that hides is our true selves,but this face rarely comes out

Because we are afraid to show our real selves,we are afraid of judgement

Afraid to be rejected hurt, we are afraid that when you show the real you and

Either this person will know that side of you

Then you get hurt or the make fun of your real self

So that's why we use face 1 face 2

Face 3 is a hidden part of ourselves,it's only revealed by one person

I know i sound like a hopeless romantic but

Ok fine

Im corny as aff

But the only one person can bring this out of you

Its gotta be that one person

Who you know will not screw you over

Love is such a strong word being thrown away

By others but honestly love is hard

I believe there is a person that will complete us,your other half that person

That no matter what you did in the past

Or who you were before

Will accept you completely and will not care

About any of that what they just want is you

You the person who is right in front of them.

But that's only a fairytale a feel ..

And love you beyond any circumstances,also if you really loved someone

Now that person will hold you down.

I do believe anyone can change if its the right person

Corny as aff but there is the ONE~

But God has intended to test us

Why God?

Why are you testing me?

Love is dumb

END for now to be continued..

Growing pains

As we grow up your circle of friends are less.

You stop hanging around people.It's not like you dislike them, you don't

Your just more careful around them.

Be kind even they choose not be

Ask forgiveness if you have offended others

Keep quiet when you are about to say something

Disrespectful.

Because we are all human and we must learn to live in this world

To be an adult.be good be civil.

That's where face 1 and 2 come in

And it says alot about you - " you are strong "

It's not only where came from that matters honestly

It's how you bring yourself

Or like my older sister said

"Be well mannered & respect everyone and you will get respect.

Be honest and people will sense trust in you "

"Also keep a good smile.it's better to be kind but in the right place

But not a pushover.but always remember to do the right thing even if others cant "

Anyway having a bad attitude won't affect you.

Sometimes people say the meanest things but honestly if you are like that

Good for you

Be that way ..there is a right place to complain (it's all about psychology in the end infj is me you really need to take a personality test to know who you really are sometimes)

How I treat you reflects on me.if im kind to you and you aren't

reflects on you not me.

Or act childish because wow your the victim?

Your a prissy prissy prince or princess?

Gives other people the right to tell you

Your childhood must be messed up,poor poor soul~sheltered ..WOW

That's why admire villains sounds silly

Not all villains were evil

They were just tired,or some goody toe shoes prince stomp on their hearts.

Or something really terrible happened to them in the past

That triggered them to be these so called villains

You gotta go back to God.but be according if "you a villain

You just address truths more than lies

Id it makes them villains, sometimes we be "we are someone's bad guy is someone's story"

They good in my book.

Then when they become this evil person

People assume OH they are just so evil the villain was

Tired of hearing every sob story,because that used to be them

Then they overcame that

Now they are evil in others eyes

Joker was insane

But he made sense

He WAS LEGEND~

That's why I mind my own business

It helps.

Sometimes karma is totally the real bitch ~~

Because you don't wanna overstep,its hard to meet people nowadays.

sometimes i dunno if someone's being nice to me or they're eeffeeng with me?

Sometimes it gets so awkward ….

I suddenly run away and say something dumb like"nice teeth"

Also you are afraid they'd call you " show off kiss ass"

A few words can hurt "but it's okay just don't give a fudge"

Da eff cry emoji

Cause i don't know how to respond to compliments

Sometimes

Especially we not close I just run

Say "thank u have a great day"

Take care yo'll

Then run nervously like a dumbass

Compliments make me uneasy

But i'm grateful it's just hard for me to express love

Because you are unsure

Where to level the friendliness

Sometimes your afraid to be too friendly..omg pervert

Hahahhahah # me too movement

hahahhahahah

They take it like omfg stalker..

What?

Can't people have crushes?then people gossip

Then people get over it. Totally get over it cause crushes only last 4 months,it usually fades

Then you get over it,you eff around a bit.

Then you stop.

Then you work.then you are single again then you focus on you..

But you don't tell people that

Because it makes you sound like a lame loser

Without a love life,which in reality is you now.then you laugh

Im single..all dem single ladies~

But I'm okay with it

Single doesn't mean lonely

Single is a choice

Then you remember OH?

I have this boyfriend.. but he's a dude that you schedule

Twice a week and you hang out sometimes

But y know he ain't marrying him...

OKAY you a hoe

Hahahahahhahahaha da eff? At Least Im honest cheers wink wink..

Maybe I'm just bored

End for now to be continued

Single single pray to God you don't get them shingles ewe

Life is better with a bit humour

It gets better.

Why is it so hard to find a husband? I'm not getting any younger here

Maybe i should follow what my sister said

Just be you but a better you

Or be that one aunt that dresses pretty and gets tipsy sometimes

I'm ok with that

Da eff older sister.

She tells me no one wants to marry a girl with a sailors mouth~ tets

Its her endearment

Siblings murder our names to feel superior n shep

Yeah she's right i swear to much

Maybe i was never meant to get married

Maybe i was fated to live happily ever after single

Yeah that's cool

One of these days,I'm not gonna tell people but I'm definitely running away.

Then live happily ever after with me and my kid

That's why I need to do good with everyone

Because one day.one day I won't be here.

But i'm not gonna die ..crazy~~I'll just be doing other things with my life.but It's just a future plan.

End for now to be continued

Chapter 9

Alvin my love my baby

Change topic

Oh my god

Oh my god... wow …why do we still try ? why do we still waste each other's time

He is so cute that's why ? why alvin why?

fudge~~~

And damn he is still tall as aff

Like a damn tower

Fudge~men who are tall are so sexy as aff

Y know what makes it fun all the sneaking around

It builds all that tension

Then you break

Then you gave the thing rules so you wont get hurt

"I asked him

convo

"What are we doing?"

Then he replies

We miss each other whats the wrong in that?

Vee: are you sure you miss me?

Alvin :of course why do you think i gave you time

As she strokes his hair and he lies on her lap

Thinking: i ' m not gonna question im just happy i saw him again

But were lying to each other

We'll eventually get over each other

When he says cousin

I say girlfriend

So were both living in a lie.

But until when ? But we got stop these nonsense..you were

After a while we became strangers

It seemed fun to him.not to me. I was convenient ..He used to be my go to whenever I want to talk to someone.

Cause we chatted constantly and we used to see each other 3 times in week.

But he had this constant thing he would go ghost.obviously dumb ass.. he's taken. Y know that already and you bit.

This was a fling .

But the more i got to know him.I liked the way he thinked

I like smart guys.it happens you fall obviously it was just me

I just miss him sometimes because

Because not alot of guys make sense

And I just miss that

and he liked the attention...

Like the song charlie puth

Lol

And quote

"But darling. . .

In the end you have to be your own hero,

Because everyone is busy trying to save

Themselves "

That's why saying "i love you is "when you don't mean it is just merely words

Without the association of feeling while your hurting the other .

He was supposed to be the END game

But He liked to play

God karma came back 10 years ago

10 years ago I liked to play then I had this perfect guy he

wanted me to be his end game i wanted to play

Let me quote on quote

"Everyone wants to be someones sun to light up life,but why not be someones moon to brighten in the darkest hour.