Dear Joyce,
You must be surprised right? I know you are.
You know you never need to pretend with me, don't you?
Of course you know or maybe you don't.....
I was such an ass-hole to you yesterday. I know. Sorry about that. It's hard to apologise to you face to face so I decide to write this letter and use the cowardly way out.
I think... I may be dying. I know my own body. I just try to make you and my parents happy by giving you a chance to try to cure me. However, I'm not sure it's working. So, I am preparing myself mentally.
I am pretty upset that nobody listen to me when I said I don't want to spend my time in the hospital and waited for my death. So, I got angry. Now, I made everybody scared and sad.
I am sorry again for the nasty temper I've got there. But I just couldn't help it. Must be the treatment (always blame the treatment...).
First, I want to say Thank You, babe. Thank you for being with me even when I am such an ass to you. Thank you for giving in during these time. I am sorry that I can't get better, the treatment doesn't work out... (again, blame the treatment.) and Thank You letting me have some moment with Jayden.
Hah! Gotcha! Surprised?
I know about you both.... yes.... I just wish that you would tell me honestly about your feeling. It'll be much more fun fighting for him than just having him on the platter just like that. But still, I appreciate the thought. Still, my pride couldn't take it and I am extremely extremely extremely extremely disappointed in you. (mark how many extremely there?) Totally disappointed in you...
--- Joyce laughed and wiped the tears from her eyes and continued reading...----
But, perhaps you think due to my condition I wouldn't be able to take it? So you wanted to protect me and such? I am not that fragile girl... I am strong... it's just the treatment messing everything up... the mood, the hormones and everything... If you told me honestly, I would be fine... (I think I will....) But still, I am a little angry with you. But if you get to read this letter, I will most likely have passed away and I have every right to think that you will break up with Jayden just because of me....
DON'T BE STUPID!
--- Joyce stared at the words for a long time.. Unsure she'll like what she will be reading next. After staring dumbly for a moment, she then continued on.---
YOU OWE ME NOTHING! Don't make me a bad person even after I am gone. I don't want to be a hungry-ghost. I want to be an angel. I want to end up in heaven! If I end up in hell because you become some kind of love martyr I'd come after you.... But then it'll be kind of nice....
--- Joyce bursted out laughing... This is so Lily....----
Whatever, just remember, go be with the one whom you love. I don't care. He doesn't love me anyway. He loves you. So don't make me the reason for your break-up or something like that. You read me?!
I will also want you to be happy. I just wish that we can be opened about this before I go. But well, please promised me that you'll be okay together. and I'll be happy and be at peace.
I love you my dear friend and I truly hope you'll get to find a friend as good as I am. Sorry that I can't be with you anymore but I'll try my best to be your secret guardian angel.
So, don't worry about me. Just go and fight for your love! and I'll be cheering you on from above.
Love,
Lily.
Joyce stared at the letter silently for a long time. She couldn't comprehend how on earth did Lily find out about her and Jayden. But she also felt relieved since she has no more secret hidden from Lily.
With new determination she went to find Jayden.