We're still sitting here for about thirty minutes now. He stopped crying but I can sense his feeling. Just sitting beside him you can feel that he's hurt and broken.
I've never seen him like this. A vulnerable and weak.
For seventh times I asked him. "What happened?" He sighed and sit properly.
"Sennie and I just broke up." He said calmly.
Wait! Whaaaaaaaaat the actual fvck!! Sennie? The Cheerleader and one of the meanest girl in school.
"Scott you know How I hated her so much right? I know it's bad backstabbing her but her attitude is a trash. She's a bully and she drops her fellow down. You know what? I'm sorry but I'm glad you broke up with her. You deserve someone else. Someone better, and someone who will be proud having you, not her and not like her. You. Fcking. Deserve. Someone. Else." I said harshly.
I know I'm not in the right place to tell him these shts but if I'm not gonna tell him about him then who?? No one. Nothing!
"You know what? People always misunderstood her. They all see how rude she is. How bad her attitude is. How she acts and talks. How her personality ruined her beautiful canvas face. but little did you all know, she's lovely. How she act when we're alone, how she handles me gently, how she cares and understand me. I love her with her flaws with every tiny bit of her. I still do."
"When you love someone you will be blind, numb and voiceless. Blind to the bad things she does, numb with all the sin she makes, and voiceless with feeling when you are hurt, but still end of the day you still love her with all you had even you're nothing at all." I smiled.
Did I fall in love? I never had a chance to have a boyfriend. There are some who tried but eventually I refused them and end up single. I do love someone who loves someone else. and I do hope that someday he see the beauty in me, the efforts I make and the love that I gave him. I hope he can see the Freya who always in his sides whenever he felt alone. A Freya who's always there when he wants to burst out. A Freya who will never leave him when world wants to play us, to broke..
It's been years. Fvcking years and still here the same page of my life hoping that he can recognize me as woman.
"Then I think if you really love her then talk to her. Pursue her again. Fight for your feelings, but please if she doesn't still want you then move on. Don't hurt yourself badly. Respect her decision. That's all you gonna do. That's all!" I said and stand up from sitting.
He looked at me while still sitting. His eyes still puffy and his nose still reddish. He looks like a child who lost his parents. "Come on. Let's eat ice cream, my treat."
He stand up and I helped him. "Ice cream? Why you'd buy an Ice cream?" He asked dumbfounded.
I sighed. "They said when you feel sad, broken and alone buy ice cream. It can ease your feeling." We walked towards the exit door.
As we walk I can see the surrounding. The trees, the beautiful weather, the flowers, it really can help you think, it's really a heaven, huh.
"Did you bring your car?" I asked while we were still walking.
"Nahhh. I didn't." He said and I just nodded.
"Alright! You can ride my car. Let's go." As I clicked my car remote key to unlock it.
I got in my car and seated comfortably while I'm waiting him enter my car.
As he finished to put his seatbelt I drove my car to the ice cream parlor that I know.
My mom taught me about this. Whenever I'm feeling down, lonely or whatever just eat ice cream and it will ease my feeling. And yeaah it's effective, tried and tested.
*Arrived at Ice cream parlor shop*
"Let's go inside I will treat you for this." I said while I'm rooming the shop. It has different ice cream flavor that can offer you.
I go to the counter as I order. "What's yours?" I asked. He said 'Cookies and cream' while I want Rocky road.
"One large Cookies and cream and Rocky road. Thank you." I said while I gave my money on the cashier.
"Thank you. You can sit while I'm doing your order Ma'am, Sir." She said with a smile.
And for a couple of minutes she gave us our order and said thank you to each other. "Enjoy."
We spent our day like that. We ate ice cream and talk about what he felt and I gave him an advice how to pursue Sienna again.