THIS FEELING~
I lie that I have a duty, I can lie that I im okay to others but why I cant lie to her.....
she's so lucky to have her mom ,she's so lucky to have her dad and brother. Im so jealous of her, and why..... why.... did I fall I lie to her at the first time I dont have my grandma I only have my self.... b-but still now the past of mine makes me cry? why!
Ring..... Ring..... Ring.....
"hello?!"
"yes?"
"why did you left?"
"(I can't speak)"
hang up~
hmm....~~~ I have a big house ,I have a car, I have my smart phones ,f"ck how useless! can I go back tobe a gangster now? I want.... I want..... yes I decided... what color do I choose? oh White.....its seems pretty cool... those words... did dad only say that to me?..... hmm..... (crying) no one can comfort me in this state people will go away from me... im so happy.....
5:45 am
Yes I need to finish it.. well it seems pretty nice hahahaha I love it..... can I cut my hair? Yes? No! Yes? No! Yes? i agreee its a Yes!!! how do I look now..... but I have a fever but its okay they didn't notice it...
"Goodmorning"
"he's a skater?"
"hmm I think so"
"hey bro"
"hey!"
"(tomorrow I will leave this school.)"
"where's your GF?"
"um in our class I think take this I dont like it"
"T.T thankyou for using idol"
"(this feeling)"
at class A
girls 1; he's so handsome today
girls 2; I agreee is that the real him?
"Aww u looks handsome bro"
"Tnks. nathan"
".....okay..."
"may I ask?"
"sure"
"umm about rizee"
"why?"
"I will leave pls. take care of her okay!"
"You want to leave? and why?"
"well because I want (but I dont) but I will back after 2years..."
"okay I will"
few minutes later
"do see Su Ji?"
"umm he buy something for you...."
"ah okay tnks.... I found ya"
"hey take this"
"are u alright?, how about your fecer?"
"(turnd a.round)"
"sorry I got the wrong person"
"its me"
"(hug him) how are u? are u eaten? my mom cook some foods do you want it? she cook it just for you.... "
"just for me I will eat it where is it?"
" come here, well this breads is just for me?"
"of course"
"(blushed)"
at class.
"there is it"
"thankyou for the food"
"(smile while thingking something emotional)"
"(its so yummy) I love it"
"you eat too fast🙊"
"haha I will walk you home today okay....wait for me"
"okay....."
after class.
do I need to tell her of just a secret? hmm..... hm.....
"Su"
its her voice.
"your here, lets go"
"yeah"
"if I leave do you have a time stop me?"
"of course, I will never let you leave, unless its your choice"
"hmmm. okay...."
"come-in"
"is that yours?"
"of course this is the first time I brought it here just to make u safe"
"Thank you"
"it's here"
"tnks. do want some drinks?"
"sure thankyou"
even its the last time ,why not hmm..... I feel emotional ,do I love her?
"hey come in"
"ah sure"
"who the hell is him?"
"im the man last night thankyou for being so kind I appreciate your hospitality missis..."
" why did you cut your hair, I love your messy hair and its turn into white you looks like a gangster, but thankyou for taking care of my child everyday I appreciate it."
"im a gangster"
"(I FEEL IN LOVE WITH THE GANGSTER?)"
"but why your so kind to us?"
"im a bad gangster ,but because I like your child I turn into a good man... either maybe its our last talk last smile and last goodbye..... I need to go."
"but your drinks."
"its nothing take cAre okay see you Rizee"
"bye"
"(he left) mom he left"
I HATE BEING A BAD BOY...