I, An mingfei even in my dying moment was not pitied. I was thrown aside and my corpse left to rot as others jeered at my once sinful existence. The entire world glad that a women like me was finally gone.
I did not resent their hatred towards me. I knew I deserved it, maybe even more than they showed. I was once the eldest miss of the An househald, daughter of the honorable and upright prime minister. I grew up spoiled and arrogant aa the eldest daughter and only legitimate daughter. At the age of 16 I was married off to the great general, Chen Wangrui. He was rumored to be scarred everywhere and coldblooded man with no respect towards women. I threw a tantrum and cried for days once I found out saying I wanted to marry the crown prince instead. I was truly naive then thinking that I deserved to be an empress and that no matter what my family would help and support me. In the end I destroyed everyone and myself. My father lost his position and my husband became crippled. My son and daughter resenting me and me becoming a commoner. How could I survive when I had lived as a sheltered girl all my life? With no way to support myself I became a beggar on the street barely scraping by.
When I died and my soul left my body I was showed the aftermath. I was surprised that one person still cries for me. It was the person who I had harmed the most, my husband Wangrui. As I watched him shed a lone tear while staring at the jade pendant that was given on our engagement I could not help but cry.
'I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I regret so much what I did to you. If their is such a thing as a next life I will be sure to repay your love.'
As I said those final words I was surrounded by a white light and my conciousness faded away.