Try not to brake my heart

My first love, turned me the way I am now, my first love broke my heart. I swore to my self that I wouldn't love again love was pointless. I was in middle school in my third year and I was 14 years old and keeper thinking, if I had lessened to mother and took her advice my heart would still be okay, but it now shattered into 100 pieces. My first love was Him Jae-hyuk now I am still suffering It's been 2 years now. My high school plenty far from his. I swore on that faithful day 2 years ago that I would never Love again, but I don't think I can keep it because of him, Ha-Joon.