After Jandi left the palace it feels like something in me left with her. I became so depressed and she just left yesterday.
I miss her, I miss talking to her. I feel so sad ..my husband doesn't even care if I'm alive or dead. It has been five days since I last spoke with him and other times that I see him ..he just replies to my greeting and walked passed me without even a second glare backwards.
"Why is he so angry at me? ..Could it be because I refused to speak with those women or listen to what they had to say ..well if it's because of that, then he can go ahead and be angry because I won't apologize for that.
I sit up on my bed and begin wiping the tears on my eyes off when Yabo call to know if he can come in.
"Come in." I said to Yabo why wondering what he could possibly want to say to me because the last time I spoke with Yabo was the day my brother was set free.
"Empress, this is Ji-Ae and Ae-Cha ..your new personal maids. The Emperor ordered them to get some of your things and bring them to his chambers, he want you be staying in his chambers ..He told me to tell you to come when you're ready to retire for the night."
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As I enter the Emperor's chambers I thought he isn't going to be in but he is and I don't know how I feel about that ..we haven't talked for a long time and the last time we talked ..it didn't end well. I was hoping he won't be in so that I will have some time alone to think things through ..like how I'm going to face him but here he is, sitting on his bed ..his eyes focused on a paper that's on his hand.
Immediately I entered his chamber fully, he lifted his head up to look at me as he keep the paper he was reading on a couch nearby then he patted his bed and direct me to come sit near him which I did and Immediately I sit down beside him, he turned me to him so that my face is now facing him and begin looking at me as if gauging my mood.
"Yabo told me you sent your maid home?" He asked and I nodded my head yes.
"You know I can have her punished if she did anything to offend you." He said while looking me in the eyes and I'd know he will do that if I ask him to but ..of course no, I won't tell him to do that besides he doesn't know the real reason why Jandi left ..they just think she did something offensive to me and because of that I had her leave the palace.
I watch my husband watch me ..probably trying to figure out what has me so low spirited and I really want to tell him ..In fact, I could have If I hadn't remembered that he sent two women to me, for them to come and ask for my permission in order to be his whore.