(Kurenai's POV)
'I lost miserably in that fight, and with my defeat, I lost everything'... Crying on the ground, while cannot standing up, I have nothing to live for anymore!
Flash back, 8 months ago...
Lady Tsunade came to me to tell me that I no longer have a future as a ninja with my crippled legs... 'It was painful to hear that, perhaps if she came earlier she could have saved my legs... At least I still have Asuma with me'... I was trying to think of the bright side... Thinking about it, Asuma will undergo a surgery next week to safe his ability to give birth...
I blushed thinking about how I and Asuma love each other, I want children, so I will pray for Asuma's surgery to succeed!
(2 weeks later...)
Asuma's ball been cut off and is now kept frozen to safe what is left from his baby seeds, he changed after this event, not that I blame him. He became a coward who feared making bets, but I still love him and wish to be with him... I wonder if he will come see me after his health becomes stable?
(Another 2 weeks forward...)
Asuma left the hospital last week, but he didn't come to visit... Something might have happened... I wrote a message telling him how much I missed him, and gave it to the nurse to give it to him. I was anxious, I thought that now I am a cripple he won't want me anymore, and now that he started to ignore me, my fears are becoming true!
I hoped that it was just my paranoia taking over me...
(Another ONE~ I mean 2 weeks forward... sigh )
I got no replies from Asuma, but from what I heard he started training inside his clan's compound and never went out from the incident, it might have had a really big impact on him, but I would accept him just the way he is, or that is what I wanted to tell him... I thought he might be too shy to face me now that he can not guarantee his ability to give birth.
(ANOOOOTHER OOOONEEE~~ damm I hate those 2 weeks skips > . > )
I heard about the news of the Ito clan buying mining rights for an isolated location... I hate them so much! If it wasn't for that kid, I would have been now spending time with Asuma! Speaking of Asuma... He didn't even send me a message back or anything... Is he really that shy? I thought I told him in the messages that it doesn't matter even if he couldn't give birth, I would accept him anyway since all what I wanted is to spend time with him!
(ANOO--- you get the meaning... 2 weeks later)
I was finally getting out of the hospital, my jounin rank was revoked by the Hokage, and I was sent home with only the money I gained from doing missions... My family members kicked me out of the house once I arrived, I felt broken that my family turned their back on me... I needed to find a place to live, so I went to the cheapest hotel with my wheelchair... I had what is enough for me to live 8 more months here... I need to ask for help!
(Ok I am really bored of those 2 weeks skips! god dang! There are still a lot of those!)
My friends also turned their back on me, only Gai and Kakashi helped me a little but they were busy by the missions they were getting from the Hokage... All those people that I knew, turned their back on me when I needed them... Now that I am a cripple they have no value on keeping me in their circle, maybe I was wrong about those people to begin with!
I still have no news about Asuma... I am here suffering while he is hiding somewhere! I am starting to lose hope that he will ever come to find me, the money that I have is quickly depleting since I didn't count for the cost of food and services that I will require...
( Ok... this time 2 month later! aka 3 months ago )
The Ito clan started a big farm in the land of rivers, it is rumored to be the biggest farm in the world! Tsunade and Shizune also stepped up and announced that they will join the Ito clan because of how benevolent the Ito are, and that they are taking loans to feed the poors of both the Rain and the Sand... Punch of hypocrites! You didn't even think about feeding the poor in Konoha, now you are feeding the others?
My life was destroyed for standing up for Asuma's arrogance... If I could turn back time, I wouldn't have stood for him that time... I wish he would have taken responsibilities, but everyone is now blaming me for dragging him into this fight even though it wasn't my fault!
(Finally! Last time skip~~ Just hours ago)
I recieved a message with the seal of the Sarotubi clan... I was glad! Finally they are going to help me... It was the happiest moment I have in the last 8 months! Everytime the Ito clan gain more power, I feel like a knife cutting through my guts! I hate them so much!
They became one of the strongest families and the sole big sellers of refined metals in the Land of Fire! It is not like they sell refined metals at the same price, it is more expensive, but the Sand will not sell us refined metals anymore because of their alliance with the Ito clan. I heard just days ago that Haru Kurihara gave birth to Hatsuko Ito... I wonder if it was only villains who always enjoy a happy ending!
Without waiting anymore, I grabbed the letter from the Sarotubi clan, hoping that it was time Asuma took me back... But once reading the title "Dissociation Letter", tears began to fall from my eyes... They were throwing me instead of taking me back! I was useless now that I am crippled, and Asuma didn't even want me back!
I started crying, I lost my balance and fell from my wheelchair... I couldn't get up since I had no power at all! To keep up with the rent, I stopped eating healthy food, no! I stopped eating foor for the last week... Today is the last day I can spend here, after that I will have no money at all... I have nothing left!
I who fought in the 3rd Great Ninja War was not afraid of dying... but this! Being thrown away by the one you love the most... It is what I feared the most... I would rather die than continue on with this life!
I had no sharp objects in the house, so I thought of just jumping from my apartment on the 3rd floow to fall on my head and die...
I started grabbing into the ground and moving my body with all the force that I had. I finally arrived at the window!
All memories of my life started flashing through my head, as I jumped with a smile on my face while the tears still running from my eyes, the seconds falling felt like minutes and I could see one figure move so fast to catch me, he was handsome, but looked similar...
I was caught by him in the middle of the air, and he just jumped and put me back on my wheelchair inside the apartment.
My teary eyes couldn't focus for sometime but when I could see again I saw that he was actually CLIFF HANGER KUN!