Say I love you I want to hear
Yet every time you speak
Death lingers
Say I love you I want to hear
Yet It's your smile
Beneath your death I cannot bear
[Time check – 10:00 am, Friday]
I went back again; I went back and this time I only have few hours.
Hirai… this time I'll save…
I stop
Did Dyne sent me to save Hirai
I clench my fist and shake my head
"Remember you cannot alter someone's death"
I cant save Hirai
I am sorry
I cannot save you
My eyes who are almost filled with tears has been wipe by a gentle hand
"Kiro"
She said my name while wiping my nonexistent tears
"Hirai"
And suddenly the whole class erupted, some cheers while others are jeers
They all happy and think that Hirai and I are flirting in front of the class.
I want to hold your hand
I want to distance you to your upcoming death Hirai
Hirai what should I do
As I ponder my thoughts time move fast
[Time check 10:30 am, Friday]
Its almost time
I thought as I look outside and suddenly someone poke me to my cheeks
It was Hirai while pouting
"What are you so gloomy for?"
She asked as she continued to poke my cheeks and get my attention
'Uhmm… Hirai?'
Hirai pouting looks so cute buuuttttt shes not like this. She's a cool beauty what is with the change. Are you not Hirai?
My thoughts wander and our eyes met, no dialogue needed and with that we understand each other
'Yup, you really are my best friend'
I smiled at her and she give her most beautiful smile
[Time check – 11:00 am, Friday]
Time is running so fast that I forgot its almost the time she will be hit by a car, the time she will die in my front.
I resolve myself and take her hand
"Hirai let's have a date"
I suggest and she smiled back at me and grasp my shaking hand.
"Sure"
She replied and after the bell rings we went to many places, eat many foods while our hands are entwined.
This is the first time I in a date but im not nervous. I am not anxious. I am not scared.
When did I get the courage to face Hirai like this, you are always beside me supporting to what I have done even without communicating to each other
You save me Hirai
This time
I
[Time check – 6:00 pm, Friday]
The sun is setting and we decided to see it on the top of the hill.
Still holding her hands, I look at her face
Her face with the tint of the sunsetting is very beautiful
She looks so majestic that her death has been overwritten from my mind.
"Kiro, I am so happy today you know"
Hirai called my name with a very childish cute voice that I heard for the first time, her cool beauty which I known for a long time has been change to a childish and cute Hirai in my front.
"Me too Hirai"
"But im quite sad"
She look at my eyes and poke my cheeks
"Auntie did not see how cool you are right now, Kiro. I never thought that Kiro will be very handsome and cool today you know, I feel happy and flustered like a child"
"Kiro of today have grown up without me knowing, I felt that I suddenly did not know you but Kiro whatever happens. Ill be there to support you"
She said as she skip and step while holding my hands
"I am happy Hirai, the Hirai I know who is a cool beauty became cute and childlike it's as if your lid has been open and im happy to see that"
"hahha"
"Hahah"
Then she remove her hands and twirl in my front and bow her head while putting it on my chest
"Maybe … just maybe … I can…"
Her nervous voice makes my heart race
I know what you will say
I heard it Hirai
Please…
I unconsciously wrap my arms around her and there she said it
"I love you Kiro"
Her previous last words once again struck my heart, I feel elated , I feel scared but I need to answer before something happens and did not regret.
"I love you too, Hirai"
I confess
Our eyes met, Our hearts race
No dialogue is needed
The confession has ended
I see her face turning red slowly and I find it amazing and pretty
"Kiroo, eheh"
She give a small laugh and she embrace me with all her might
[Time check - 6:45 pm, Friday]
Nothing happen after we confess to each other yet I can't be relieved, even so I resolve myself.
Its almost evening and we spend on the top of the hill looking at the city, waiting for the sun to set while we hold hands.
From best friends now we are lovers
How wonderful
"Hmmph~"
Hirai keeps on pouting as she looks at me
"What is that face for Hirai?"
"I wonder Kiro~"
"But Kiro… you know … your amazing, I thought you will be flustered when I confess to you. I am prepared to wait for your answer for years you know, but yet you said it with confidence. I felt of my preparations are all wasted. Really, when did Kiro grow up"
Hirai murmured with a pouting face
Grow up huh
I really did grow up if its my previous self I can see myself getting panic and distancing to Hirai for who know how many years maybe I really grow up.
"Dunno~"
"Bleee Kiroo, you dummy"
She sticks her tongue and we decided to go home.
[Time check - 8:00 am, Saturday]
I am so excited to go to school and decided to go together with Hirai, my current girlfriend. Ahhhhh still giving me bliss.
As I went closer to her house, I felt a premonition, a bad premonition.
I run
Faster
Hurry up
My hearts race together with time and the time I arrived I see her mother crying and when our eyes met she handed me a letter
A love letter…
No…
Rather a suicide letter