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Chapter 18 - First Year - 2

2014

Even though it took me weeks to recover, my college authorities were understanding and pardoned me for taking so many leaves.

Last semester a student committed suicide for not being able to continue college due to medical reasons. He was given a year back! It means he would have to scrap one year because he was sick and go through the entire academic session again.

Probably that incident melted the college authorities and now they are a bit flexible for genuine cases like mine.

Although I understand both the parties. The college authorities were only abiding by the rules. On the part of the student, fee for private college is high as it is, an year back not only sums up to a Gap year but another year's worth of tuition fee as well. Kush told me how it happened with one of his senior. Life is in a turmoil because of one Gap year.

I being another genuine case of excessive leaves am exempted from rules. Instead I'll have to submit extra assignments to prove that I'm covering up good.

In life something has changed though! I can't talk to people for more than a few minutes. New people are a strict no! I find myself judging people and looking at them in a negative light.

Somewhere, my confidence also took a toll and I'm restricting myself from opening up to people.

You might be wondering about Kush, let me tell you. We are good friends now. He understood that there is nothing more to 'us.'

To cut the long story short..

He had grown to the idea of loving me because of the amount of help he provided. He was there for me whenever I needed him. I asked him for a week's worth of time to reconsider his feelings. The introspection made him understand that he cares for me but doesn't really love me romantically.

The duo? Well, they are having fun at jail. How? Well, the messages I sent to Kush were timely read and he came home just in time to call for an ambulance.

In a hurry, Garry and Raavie forgot to pick up their stuff. It took two days for the police to find the evidence, drug stash with the fingerprints on it. My story proved to be right after they checked CCTV footage from the café where they, the duo spiked my drink with drugs.

This being my first offence and unintended consumption of drugs, they let me go with a warning and a fine. Thankfully, my parents were not called over and our senior from office bailed me out.

It's funny how everything started with encouragement from Kush, I let go of myself and ended up in more restrictions than before. Earlier I used to keep it all to myself and found faults with myself only. Now it's more like I can never be wrong!

It seems to have happened so long ago yet the memories are vivid in my mind. Today when I am being proposed to again, I wonder if it is true or an illusion like the last time.