I'm up late for no real reason that night; scrolling through my phone on the couch in the main room. I'm about to go to bed when Rayla's door opens up, she stumbles out with her eyes half-closed. Obviously still very tired she makes her way to the bathroom, closing the door behind her. She's in there for a couple of minutes before she leaves and goes back into her room. I watch that scene play out without saying anything because what is there to say?
I head to bed shortly after that. Morning comes, then afternoon and Rayla still hasn't gotten up. I'm starting to think she died when she stumbles out of her room again. Still in her t-shirt and underwear, she approaches me in the kitchen area and sits at the table. Rayla crosses her arms and rests her head on them as if she didn't get enough sleep.
"'Morning, babe," she mumbles.
"It's well into the afternoon."
"Really?"
"Yeah, you woke up almost at the same time you went to sleep. Who sleeps for an entire day?" I ask it a bit more callous then I meant to, as I'm genuinely curious.
"A person who's been up for three days straight," she answers like that explains everything.
"And why were you up for three days straight?" Rayla lifts her head and quirks her eyebrow.
"Wouldn't you like to know?"
"...Yeah, that's why I asked."
"Look, let's leave some mystery to me. Let me ask you a question; can I get the other 'B' from this B&B?"
"Well, since it's four in the afternoon, it's not really breakfast. But I can get you some coffee." I get up to go the counter.
"That'd be great, babe." I pause while reaching for the coffee pot.
"Stop calling me 'babe'," I reply while readying the coffee.
"You got it, honey," Rayla says trying to charm me with her smile of perfect teeth. I can see that I'm not going to get out of this without some kind of affectionate pet name. I want to find it annoying but I can't summon the energy.
"You call girls 'honey' and 'babe' when you can't remember their names?" Hoping conversation will somehow make the coffee brew faster.
"I'm hurt you'd suggest such a thing 'Becky Dover'," she says my name the way I say it. "I'm excellent at remembering names. I just like to have fun." I nod my head.
"Like walking around in your underwear?" I point out. She looks down and just now realizes her state of dress. Rayla quickly peers around the room to see one of the rare moments no one is in the main room.
"Yes uhh," she clears her throat. "It's a part of my charm." Her smile isn't as confident as before but just as dazzling.
"Mhmm. I brought your clothes from your cycle to your room. In case you wanted to wear something…" I trail off as I look her up and down in the seat. Slouched with her long brown legs crossed now that she knows she isn't wearing anything. Her blue hair is short enough that it isn't messed up from sleeping the day away. The bags under her eyes aren't as severe as they were yesterday. I realize that I've been looking at her for too long.
"More appropriate," I finish my thought. She knocks her knuckles on the table.
"I think I'll take you up on that." With that Rayla quickly goes back to her room to change. By the time she comes out the coffee is ready. She comes out wearing slim-fitted, black track pants with white stripes down the sides. She still has on her "No Idea" shirt. She sits at the table while I pour her and myself a cup.
"Would you like any sugar or milk?"
"Both, please." I oblige and sit with her at the table. Rayla stirs her coffee, now fully looking around the house. She scans the environment with a curious eye. I suppose she didn't take it all in when she first got here, being up for three days and all.
"Your great-great-grandfather built all this?" She asks before taking her first sip. She remembered that.
"Well there have been some modifications over the years but yeah, all three floors. There's a sad story about the third floor," I explain. I ask myself why I included the last part while drinking my coffee. Rayla adds a bit more sugar to her coffee. She has a sweet tooth.
"Hmmm, well let's not have sad stories first thing in the morning."
"Afternoon."
"Whatever. Let me ask you something else; what's the job market like around here?" She stirs her coffee more.
"You could get a job in one of those sleepy stores but I think they'd rather get your money than give you some." I think about it for a second. "You might be able to do the odd job or two if you don't mind physical labor." Rayla closes her eyes and thinks.
"How much does that room cost?" Her eyes are still closed.
"It's cheap. My mother makes the rates but she'd probably let you stay for nothing but your company." Mom has always been so carefree with money for someone who runs a B&B (theoretically). "She wouldn't let a young black girl rough it in the streets." A corner of her mouth curls up. She doesn't like the idea of staying somewhere absolutely free. Rayla hums quietly as she gets lost in some thought. She finally opens her eyes.
"I'll make it work." She finishes her coffee in one drink and stands up. "That coffee is slamming by the way. Definitely let me get another of those. Been too long since I had home brewed coffee," she says as she walks to her room, only to stop and turn to face me again. "Did you move the rest of my stuff in here?"
"No, just your clothes." With that, she alters her path and heads outside. I pour her another cup as I wait for her to come back. When she does, she has a messenger bag, a bookbag and two carrying cases for cameras. She holds them all with no problem, clearly used to it.
"You guys have WiFi?" She asks while opening the messenger bag.
"This may be the middle of nowhere, but we're not savages. The password is eighteen B's" Rayla frowns at me for clarification. "Eighteen of the letter 'B'," I explain.
"Ahh," she says while taking out her laptop. I can't tell what kind it is since it's covered in stickers of all sorts of things. Cartoon characters, phrases, logos of companies I don't recognize, and other random things. "Just as well, my laptop is dead." Rayla jogs to her room to put it on the charger. When she comes back she takes out her cameras, inspecting them. The first one looks expensive, like something a professional would use. She mumbles to herself as she looks over whatever it is she needs to. She takes out different lenses and checks them over with practiced precision. She has a bunch of memory cards and parses through them, asking herself questions. Deciding on one, she sticks it in the camera and puts all of it away.
The second camera she takes out is much simpler than the first. It doesn't have as many lenses, dials or switches as the other; it's older and worn with age, a few scuffs, and scratches along its edges. Rayla holds and inspects it a with a gentler, more intimate touch than the first, despite the ruggedness it possesses.
"You a photographer of some kind?" I add milk and sugar to her coffee.
"Yeah," she chuckles "some kind." she finishes her inspection and turns to face me again. "You said it's 4 in the afternoon?"
"Yeah." I finish adding the obscene amount of sugar she'd want in it. Rayla looks past to the nearest window, examining something.
"Hmm, maybe tomorrow," she says to herself. I'm starting to get the feeling she talks to herself a lot. "Becky, would you show me around town?"
"Sure." It's better than the inevitable swarm she's soon to face if she doesn't leave.
"Thank you." She puts both her cameras away and slings their cases over her shoulder. Rayla downs her coffee quickly and heads to the door.
"Guess I'll finish my coffee later," I say to myself.
I meet Rayla outside as she turns her motorcycle on, she offers me the helmet again before looking at my twist-out.
"Right, just got your hair done." she puts the helmet on herself and I hop behind her.
As we stroll into town, Rayla slows down and the meager populace of this town start to take notice of the stranger driving around a Dover girl. I direct her to Liberty Boulevard, the longest street with the most businesses. I don't know where she might want to go, so I wander somewhat aimlessly. I, admittedly, give a lackluster tour of the fine establishments this town has to offer. I want to impress Rayla but even I know you don't brag about a dying horse to someone from one of the biggest racetracks. That's a weird analogy. The point is I can't muster up the fake enthusiasm to act like I'm showing her anything remotely exciting.
If Rayla picks up on this, she doesn't say anything. She's taking pictures of everything, no matter how mundane it is. Her hands are perfectly steady as she takes each picture with her fancy camera.
"You never answered my question, are you a photographer?" Kinda silly question to ask when she has two cameras and taking pictures of everything. She aims her camera at a store that repairs electronics.
"If you're asking am I a professional then, yes I am. I even got a website. I'm legit." CLICK. "What's the deal with this town? It didn't really show up on my GPS. Just some buildings." CLICK.
"Yeah, that makes sense. Freedman Hills is usually forgotten."
"Freedman Hills," Rayla repeats "with a name like that, there's some history here. Tell me about it," she asks.
"It was built by escaped and freed slaves. We're just North of what was the nearest slave state." I feel like a real tour guide now. "The town is about as old as my house. It was a haven for Black people back in the day." Rayla puts down her camera and frowns.
"Why is this the first I'm hearing of it?" I just lift an eyebrow at her. "Right, dumb question." We both know the answer to that. I start walking again and Rayla follows closely behind, listening intently.
"Anyway, then the Civil war came through, this place was hit hard. We rebuilt, White supremacists attacked, we rebuilt, more awful stuff happened and we rebuilt." Beatrix, my third oldest sister, knows history better than I do but I continue. "World War 1 and 2, Korean and Vietnam wars came and so did the draft." I check a text I get on my phone. Bella wants me to pick up some ingredients. She's making chicken and dumplings for our guest tonight. "'The government always forgets about Freedman Hills until there's a war and they need cannon fodder.' Something I always heard my mom say." I start walking toward the grocery store. "Between all that, the town never got much bigger, basically nothing significant has ever happened here, and certainly no one famous was born here." Rayla has a strange expression on her face, processing all that I've told her. I can practically see the cogs turning in her head, but exactly she's thinking I can't say.
We walk into the grocery store and a blast of cool air hits us from the A.C. I grab a basket.
"That's the long and varied history of this town. What's it like being a photographer in New York City?" Rayla comes back to reality and just now seems to notice where we are.
"It's hard to make a living off it," she answers as she starts to look through the pictures she's taken so far. "You ain't the only one and everybody wants to pay you in 'exposure'," she air quotes around the word with particular disgust. "Mr. I Have 600 Followers wants to pay me in exposure." She scoffs. "And so many of the girls who ask me to take photos of them, request really weird edits."
"Like what?" I pick up shortening.
"They always want me to make their faces look like those filters on those apps. They're really messin' with our concept of beauty. When I'm done, half the time they don't look like real people." Rayla starts taking pictures again.
"So why do you do it?"
"They pay me," she explains. CLICK. A picture of an empty aisle. "Most of the money I make comes from doing photo shoots. Headshots, fashion, modeling, people who are just flexin', that sort of thing." CLICK. Tower of soda cans.
"You like it? Photographing people? Cuz it looks like you prefer taking pictures of nothing." CLICK. She's captured the essence of canned peaches.
"Don't get me wrong, you get invited to a lot of events, meet interesting people, sample some hors d' oeuvres." CLICK. Pile of apples. "And I like taking pics of girls in uhh…." she clears her throat "risqué outfits as much as the next girl. But I like taking photos of whatever I want when I want to. And that rarely ever pays." CLICK. Rotisserie chickens spinning. I compare two containers of paprika, Bella's secret ingredient.
"You like groceries stores that much?" I pick the bigger one.
"No, yes. I'm taking pictures just to have them. Better to have them and not need them, than get a request and not have anything on hand," she explains.
"Who would request pictures of a grocery store?"
"You'd be surprised how many companies ask for shots of ordinary stuff for websites and stuff like that. Plus there's always a contest or two I could enter." She puts her fancy camera away and takes out the older one. "It's mostly for practice though, don't want to get rusty." She looks me up and down before aiming the camera at me. "You ever model before, Becky?" I put my hand on the lens.
"Not for a fancy New York photographer, no."
"Hmm, I like the way you say that. Makes it sound like I'm an exotic animal or something."
"You have blue hair."
"You got me there. Still, you should think about it." Rayla wipes her lens with her shirt. "I wouldn't mind if you were the model."
"I don't think there are models that are quite my size." I look over Rayla's slender form. She looks like she'd be at home on a runway, despite her casual outfit. I pick up a sack of flour. That's everything Bella asked me to get.
"There are many plus-size models. Not that you're plus size. I mean, you are but- I don't mean that being plus size is a bad thing or anything." She makes a small groan. I put the stuff on the conveyor. "Before I shoot myself in the foot, I mean to say that you'd be a nice model." That was the most awkward attempt at a compliment I've ever heard but I still smile. Rayla quickly aims her camera at me and takes a picture. "Becky Dover smiling. That's a front-page photo," Rayla says with her own dazzling smile. I can't help but chuckle at her.
"You always this much of a flatterer?"
"Only to pretty girls, babe." Rayla lets a sly smirk slide across her face. I can't think of anything to say to something so cocky, so I let out a small scoff, ignoring the warmth spreading to my cheeks. I don't even realize I'm staring at her face until the checkout clerk clears her throat to get our attention.
"Cash or credit?" She politely asks. I quickly pay and we exit the store.
Rayla starts up her motorcycle to hear the engine die.
"Crap, forgot to get gas. Figures it would choose now to conk out." She grabs the handles, kicks the kickstand and holds up her bike. "Becky, would you please escort me and Cassidy here to the nearest gas station?"
"Sure." We walk in silence for a while before I feel I have to ask. "You named your bike Cassidy?"
"That depends, do you think it's cool?"
"Not really." But a small smile comes across my face.
"Then I didn't….but yeah I did."
"Do you always name things?"
"Yeah, doesn't everybody?" I shake my head. "Well, their loss. I think things work better if you name them."
"Oh yeah? What about your cameras?"
"This one is Crow," she points the fancy one. "And this guy is Conrad," she points to the older one. She runs her fingers over the camera. "We go way back. Won my first contest with him." She tilts her head back as she no doubt starts to reminisce about something. "But Crow makes me look more professional, different lenses and all."
We turn a corner and the gas station is down the block. Rayla goes into the store to activate the pump and I quickly search her name on my phone. Among reviews, analysis, and praise for her work; a website with her name on it appears. It has a minimalist design with neatly organized archives of her work separated into categories. Portraits, Landscapes, Fashion, Misc, and one called Stories. Opening the fashion archive, some of the most gorgeous human beings I've ever seen appear on my screen.
I scroll down to see the risqué outfits she mentioned and they are indeed risqué. She's taken pictures of girls like these, and thinks I'm pretty? Is she dumb? Partially blind? But then I remember what she said about the photos being edited, then the small pang of jealousy I have quells. Rayla comes back and starts filling up her tank.
She shoots a wink at me and I start to blush again.
"Why'd you leave New York City? There ain't much for you here."
"Oh, don't be so modest. There's always something somewhere."
"That doesn't make any sense and it doesn't answer my question." Rayla thinks about it for a moment, closing her eyes.
"Don't get me wrong, I love my city. But I realized a while back that I've never left it," she frowns "well I did once but that was a school trip. Anyways, then I got to thinking about some of my favorite artists, and how they traveled for inspiration or just for fun. So then I hopped on Cassidy here, chose a direction and…" she gestures to everything around us "here I am."
The girl left her hometown on a whim.
"And how do you know if you're where you should be? Seems like a good way to get horribly lost." She looks me up and down before she answers with a shrug.
"Anywhere you live can't be so bad. I wouldn't mind getting horribly lost with you," she says. A second of silence between us gives her the chance to think about what exactly she just said. Rayla clears her throat. "Anyway, so that's why I'm here." She seems particularly interested in a spot on the ground, turning her head from me. I'm not sure what to say in response to such a...heavy flirtation. She's kept it light and playful up til now, but that, the way she said it strummed a heart string or two.
Thankfully she's finished fueling up and we ride home.
I hear the commotion inside before I get the door. I turn to Rayla,
"Brace yourself."
"What for? Sounds like a good time in there," Rayla flashes that smile of hers.
"Oh you poor sweet thing," I reply while opening the door. As soon as we get into the main room my sisters (except Bonnie who already met her and Bella who is cooking), cousins and aunts swarm Rayla; asking her questions ranging from the entirely trivial to the incredibly personal.
"Why'd you dye your hair blue?"
"I thought it would look cool."
"Is it true New York is riddled with crime?"
"I hope not."
"Are you one of those artsy weirdo New Yorker or a straight-up gangsta New Yorker?"
"I like to think I'm both but probably just the first one."
"Are you a lesbian or do you just dress like one?"
"That's a pretty loaded question; don't you think?"
"GIRLS!" My mother yells over all of them. "Give her some peace! Stop acting like a buncha harpies and get ready for dinner!" They all know better than to argue with her and clear out. "Sorry about that; sometimes they act like they ain't never met a stranger before. Go on, sweetie, dinner will be ready soon. You can have a seat or wash up if you want," my mother says with her soothing voice and a warm smile. As everybody starts to settle in, Rayla sits next to me at the table.
They've put on a big spread for our guest. For dinner, we have chicken soup with dumplings, cornbread, chicken fried steak, barbecue pulled pork, collard greens, rice and beans, mac 'n' cheese, candied yams, potato wedges, and for dessert Bella's famous cinnamon buns; creating a mixed heavenly aroma that goes throughout the house. After a short grace we dig in, I make a plate for Rayla; one of everything for the guest and she ain't picky. She devours it all and asks for seconds with that charming smile of hers and everyone at the table practically jumps at the chance to oblige. I wave off their advances, taking this opportunity to do some introductions.
"Rayla, meet my crazy family. You've already met Bonnie," I point to her at the end of the table and my oldest sister does a small wave. "That's Bella, head chef tonight, and my second oldest sister." Bella gives a nod. She has her long dreadlocks up in a bun on top of her head. I start listing my sisters in age order. "That's Beatrix, Bernice, Bridget, and Bethany." Each gives their little greeting. I move on to my cousins. "These are my cousins, Brook, Breanne, Bibi, Blossom and Begonia (identical twins)," as I list them I can see Rayla nodding along but I know that she's lost and isn't remembering all these names. Still, I press on, "and these are my aunts; Betty, Brandy, Blake, and Bea." I finish making her second plate.
"Last, but not least, my mother: Beverley." Sitting at the far end of the table my mom waves and gestures to everything.
"Welcome to the Dover B&B," she says. A question forms on Rayla's lips but she thinks better of it and just starts on her food.
After dinner when everyone goes about their business, Rayla starts doing her laundry and hops in the shower. She gets out with a towel wrapped around her torso and goes to her room.
I'm considering just going to bed when I hear Rayla call for me.
She's sitting on her bed with her laptop open, still in her towel.
"I wanted to show you my website," she explains. I keep quiet about the fact that I already saw it. She pats the space next to her, inviting me to sit. If she doesn't care that she's almost naked then why should I?
As she starts up her computer I try and fail to keep my eyes off her. That smooth dark brown skin of hers is still damp. Beads of water glisten in the light and lazily trail down her arms. Her blue hair is short enough that it's mostly dry. Without meaning to I spy a tattoo on her back; it looks like half a ring with a rainbow color gradient like you see on editing software. It spans the space between her shoulder blades and the other half is hidden behind her towel.
When she reopens her browser a story called "Sparks Between Us" pops up which she closes.
"Doing some light reading," she says with a shy smile. She goes to her website quickly scrolls past the fashion section to show me her misc works. They're pictures of random things, each with a paragraph or so of text.
"I like to write lil' stories for pictures. Not many read them, but I enjoy it so," she shrugs "I still do 'em." she scrolls through them all. There's a lot.
"Is it hard, writing up all those stories?"
"Every picture has a story in it. Or maybe I only think that cuz I do it for a living. But if you want to know what a person holds dear, look at what they take pictures of," Rayla says. "Anyway, I just wanted to uhhh, show it to you. To let you know I'm not just some creepy bozo," she reveals.
"If I thought you were a 'creepy bozo' I wouldn't have invited to my home."
"Fair enough."
"And, if you were, I'd probably be in trouble since I'm on your bed and you're just in a towel," I point out. Rayla, for the second time today, just now seems to notice her state of dress and starts laughing in a burst of nervous energy.
"Oh, yikes. Yeah, I can see how that would send some messages." She gets up while clutching the towel closer to herself like it's doing something. "I'm going to check on my laundry." Rayla leaves on that note. Seems the photographer can't handle being noticed.
Well into the night when I'm up late for no reason again, Rayla comes out of her room. This time fully dressed in her track pants and a big black hoodie. She has her tripod and fancy camera with her.
"Can I get to the roof?" She asks me, unwilling to elaborate any further.
"Not really. C'mon I'll show you the top floor." She follows up the metal staircase to the third-floor balcony. The cool summer air breezes by lazily this high up. There isn't much to see, behind the house is the Drinking Gourd forest and in front is the town. A dark and small thing from this far at this height. Rayla has her phone out, with a compass app open.
She walks the entire balcony before getting to the easternmost point. Rayla tosses her tripod onto the roof before I can ask what she's planning she runs up the wall and climbs onto the roof. Offering her arm for me to grab, I struggle to get up there with the same ease as her. Rayla manages to pull me up and we stumble together. I land on top of her, my face just inches from hers. The warmth of her body under mine radiates into the small space between us.
This close I start to take in whatever finer details I can in this low light. Her round nose, the gentle slope of her cheekbones, the part of her full lips, and how wide her brown eyes are. I can feel them scanning them my face and know she's doing the same. Too many seconds pass in silence for it not to be awkward. We both start mumbling excuses as we straighten ourselves out. I clear my throat and needlessly play with my hair.
"You run up walls often?"
"Let's just say that some of my best photos were taken while trespassing." She offers a shrug with the statement.
"So why are we on the roof?"
"Well I've never seen these many stars before, being from the city and all," she starts setting up her tripod. "And I wanted to do a long exposure shot of them till sunrise. Thought that would be cool." She attaches her camera. "Also wanted to see the view from up here."
"You're going to stay up all night?" She just nods her head as she makes whatever adjustments she needs to the camera. Suddenly her staying up for three days straight makes sense. I just watch her set it up when she looks over her shoulder at me.
"Wanna learn about cameras?" She invites me over with a wave of her hand. Rayla starts going over the different parts of the camera. Her face lights up explaining what each part does. When I get behind the viewfinder, she comes close behind me. Her breath tickles my cheek while she goes over the function of button and dial. I try to absorb what "shutter speed" is but Rayla has herself pressed against my back and I can't concentrate. Her hands guide mine over the device, letting me know what to press but I only think about how soft her skin is.
"There, it's adjusted for low light. Take a picture." I click the button and take a picture of the forest. "See, you're a natural!" She praises. Rayla aims her camera again to the east.
"Sun should rise right through those trees and it'll be a great shot." Rayla sits down and starts admiring the night sky. "Ya can't see many stars in the city so I never bothered to learn them. You know any constellations?" She asks me. I remember some when Bonnie had a brief interest in astronomy. I point them out and a cool breeze sweeps over the roof. Shivering slightly; I'm contemplating going inside for a blanket when Rayla unzips her hoodie and wraps her arm around my shoulders, covering me in the soft fabric.
She pulls me in close to her so we both fit in the garment. I can't resist the urge to rest my head on her warm body. We stargaze in silence. Growing up with these stars, I never thought much about them. But the fascination on Rayla's face says this isn't a common sight. If they make her this happy, I guess they're good for something. I'm having trouble keeping my eyes open.
"You can sleep if you want to. I'll wake you when the sun comes up," Rayla says as she shifts to make me more comfortable.
"I bet you say that to every girl you stargaze with on a rooftop," I joke.
"You'd be the first, babe." She flashes that smile at me again.
"Oh, so you've done this with other girls before?" Her expression becomes blank. "Guess I'm just another notch on the bedpost, huh?" Panic quickly spreads over her face as I tease her.
"No! I-i meant you'd be the first to stargaze with me. Not that you're the first girl I said that too, there-" I can't help but laugh aloud at her visibly squirm while trying to correct herself.
"I'm just playing, relax girl."
"Yea- yeah I knew that," she tries to play it off but she sighs in relief. "I'd hate to ruin the vibe on such a nice night." Nice night, huh? Her collar is slender, it takes me a second to find a comfortable spot as a gentle tiredness washes over me.
"Don't try anything slick, ya hear?" She starts mumbling her response before I cut her off. "I'm kidding, Rayla." She nervously chuckles again.
I think I might like messing with her.
I think I might like Rayla.
Chapter 2 end