Chapter 3 - For eternity, I've loved you
"Eve--Even though I--- I Haven't pr--properly answered to you? "
-Senpai?
I was shocked to see, my senpai crying and Stood there, speechless. I was not able to find any words that I could speak- I was scared to hurt her more since I knew for the fact, Whatever reason is- It is because of me that she is crying
But still, I couldn't stand it- seeing the person you love crying like that really hurt. I had to do something or at least say something to her and so I did
It was a move that I took while I was desperate to do something for her
" If that so, can senpai answer me right now? "
-Even though I know the answer but this way, I could just maybe change the subject in a positive view, at least for senpai. (<-- totally Felt like digging my own grave)
It's gonna hurt a lot if she says my feeling doesn't even worth her consideration
"Eh? "
" Senpai, Would you go out with me? "
And this time, My words were not broken but crystal clear and to make my feelings that much clear
" KK---kat--suki-Chan?? "
" I fall in love with you when I saw you for the first time at the train station, It been more than a year and I haven't once stopped thinking about you. Even though I knew that my feelings could never reach you, I tried. I did my best and tried hard to convey my feelings to you "
-I have been through a lot in the last two days, I am ready for the worst possible outcome because I have already achieved the goal that I set in my mind before confessing to senpai one more time. She is not crying anymore.
I wanted to surprise her by my stupidity if my stupidity could help her smile if it can stop her from crying even for a moment- When I looked at her and Saw her smiling face. my stupidity, It was worth showing it.
But now, For her answer, if there was any- Senpai, she said
"I am not gonna-- "
-I am not gonna date someone disgusting like you? is that what she is about to say? I wanna run away so bad!
" I am not gonna ruin my chance like before-- "
-Damn it! I am ready, I ain't gonna run like before.
This was the only time that I can say, I am truly proud of myself for making the right decision.
"I am not gonna ruin my chance like before, so Yes. "
" I'M SORR--! That I am so digusti---Wait, Yes? "
-EH????????? Did senpai just accept my confession? Am I dreaming?
Yes, She did just that and I was happy beyond words but as my personality is, For me, it was something that was too good to be true. Thus I started thinking like before, coming up with stupid thoughts like- Is she planning to bully me? is she gonna mock me once I have shown my happiness?
But thankfully by this time, Senpai came to understand my personality or at least that's what I can make out of words that she said at that time
" You say, You been in love with me for a year but- for eternity, I've loved you"
" Huh? "
I can't blame past me for not understanding those words since I still don't quite understand myself what she meant by those words. Thus I took those words as a hint that she understood my personality and she wanted to make sure that I don't misunderstand senpai's answer and as she said with a big smile on the face
" Don't worry, you will understand one day "
Even though I didn't understand what she meant by that, it still made me really happy but also, those words really gave me an unsettling comfort.
I am waiting for that day to understand the meaning behind those words if there is any.