Chapter 2 - Undying Love, Part 2
"Senpai, Please don't kiss someone before upright rejecting him, It could cause a misunderstanding. "
With those words, I left senpai standing there in the park and came back home.
When I opened the main door of my home and stepped inside, as always there was nothing but silence- I live alone. dropped my school bag on the couch and directly went to the shower- I stayed in the shower for a while.
Afterward, I went to sleep.
"My comfy bed, That's what I need right now. "
I felt really empty as if the world had lost all of its meaning-
There was not a single shred of remorse, Guilt, Sadness, in me. Weird, isn't it?
-When will this foolish life of mine end?
With that thought, I slept
{Next Morning}
The doorbell woke me up in earl-- No, It was around 6 am, I didn't set alarm clock since I didn't plan to go to the school today and rest.
I live alone so, there wasn't anybody who would answer the door and I was not in the mood for guests in this early morning- I kept on sleeping
once again, I was wakened up by the doorbell. This time I looked at the clock and it was 7:40 AM- I had no choice but to get up from my bed and answer- I was still in Jersey, I walked to the door and opened it
To my surprise, I found senpai at the door- Waiting,
"Katsuki-Chan! Are you fine now? "
" uh?"
"S--Senpai! What are you doin'-- Senpai? " -Why would senpai come to my hou---
And then I looked on her sides, what was beside her were two huge bags
-Is she planning on leaving the town? Did she come here to say goodbye?
" - You see, I, Hmm-- I was thinking if-- you... "
She was planning to leave the town, was it because of what happened yesterday?- With that, I started to blame myself.
-Am I that disgusting that if I confessed to a girl, she would leave the town?
I bowed down to her and apologized to
" I'm Sorry Senpai! if I had known that my confession would make you leave the town I would never have confessed to you! "
Even if she thinks of me someone who doesn't worth her answer, I couldn't possibly cause problems to her- Everyone has their likes and dislikes, I can't do anything if she doesn't like me. She has a lot of friends and her family in the town and if she left because of what happened yesterday if she was leaving because someone like me had confessed to her- I wouldn't be able to forgive myself
" If my confession bothers you that much, I will leave the town for you! I will never show my face in front you-"
It was fine for me to leave the town, In the end- I don't have a family, friends, unlike senpai.
" It was my fault that I confes--- "
After that, What came next was something I really deserved- Something that needed to me wake me up from my world filled with--
And that was a slap on my cheek. My first time getting slapped by a girl, what can I say, It was rather heartbreaking.
-Senpai?
But when I looked up, towards senpai- She was already leaving. I kept standing there, trying to comprehend what was actually going on?
I was ready to leave the town for her, so why?
"Huh? "
While Senpai was getting further and further away from me and I didn't know what I was supposed to do with the feeling that kept coming like a wave that I won't be seeing senpai ever again if I let her go now but-
-How can I stop her? It is because of me she is leaving. It--its all my fault.
If only I had my placed myself in senpai's shoes, I would have understood everything but I was too self-centered to do that- *Sigh* Thankfully there something that hit me at that time, The question that I am really grateful to, and The courage that came with that question.
" Did I even let her speak--? "
Maybe that slap really did a number on my brain, in a good way. Until now all I was doing, making decisions for me and for her too- I was deciding things on her behalf too. I didn't grasp on everything but that small question was all I needed at that time
" SENPAI! "
At least, I was changing, even if a little by little.
So, I called out to her in a loud voice and ran to her
When I reached her I was out of breath, -Damn she walked quite a far for someone of her height and legs. (Including those heavy looking bags)
" Katsuki-Chan? "
She looked straight into my eyes, it was the first time she did something like that- And I was finally able to see, Her eyes were wet, a little red as if she was crying just a few seconds ago
"Hi--- Senpai, Th--The question you asked earlier, I think-- I am fine now"
Yea, right The question she asked when I opened the door for her was if I was fine or not- This time I had also decided no matter what, I will let her make the decision for herself and simply answers her questions, listen to her words
She smiled a little and said
" I see "
-Now what?
I would listen to her words, huh?
" Senpai? "
" Katsuki-Chan ?"
I looked around myself and realized we were standing in the middle of a street but asking something like that-- It was embarrassing since I never asked anyone
" Woud-would- you mind a dr--drink???? "
And we ended up at my house.
-What gives? I thought for sure that she would refuse my offer and would be angry but--
She was rather comfortable as if she was in her own house--
She sat on a couch, I gave her a drink (Juice)
She started to drink her juice and after finishing the juice, I thought she would say something but she didn't and her stomach started to growling
"Senpai, I will make something. Please wait "
she nods her head and I started making breakfast- The atmosphere was awkward
While I was making breakfast, She came to me and asked
"Katsuki-Chan? Can I help you with something ?"
" Aha, No there is no need for that. I am just making omelet so.. " -There is nothing much you can do and I also already had split the eggs
She replied while looking a little disappointed
" Umm "
-Sorry senpai, but seriously- There is nothing you can do.
After that, She started looking around the house(Are you gonna buy it?) and It kinda also started to weird me out by the way she was making herself home.
When I was done making breakfast, I put plates on the table and served it
" Thank you for the meal "
Said Senpai before starting to eat
When we were done eating, she insisted on cleaning dishes so, I let her. The atmosphere between us had somewhat become light and we were talking a little but I knew, She was about to leave the town so, I had no choice but to engage the conversation on the subject that I avoided in fear that she would get angry like before.
So, While we were cleaning dishes I said
" I'm sorry senpai for causing you all the troubles "
I expected her to be angry just like the time before but she wasn't, she replied calmly with a question, That question was a really hard one for me to answer
" Kotsuki-Chan, Tell me do you regret that much, confessing to me? "
If she had asked me this question now I'd reply to her without the slightest hesitation that "I don't!" but the situation was different for me at that time, I always saw the world in a totally different perspective than others around me-
At that time my answer was
" somewh-- I do "
How could I not? If only I had not confessed, she would not have to leave the town.
But to my surprise, I received an answer from senpai that I had never expected, with a face that I never knew she had
"Eve--Even though I--- I Haven't pr--properly answered to you? "
The perfect figure that I made out of her in my mind, was shattered into pieces when I saw her face while she said that to me and Tears started pouring out of her eyes
I wish---I wish I could go back in time and punch myself for making her cry. From saying something that I myself wasn't even sure of
How stupid, How selfish I was.