Chapter 2 - Undying Love
My name is Riel Katsuki, Given name- Katsuki, Family name- Riel.
A 16-Year-Old, High School Student, Who live alone.
I stayed alone for most of my life, I never once wanted to have friends. To me, making a friend seemed more like a bother than anything but that changed, Something changed about me When I saw her for the first time at the train station- They way she walked in front of me, not giving even slightest hint of hesitation in her own beauty. For the first time, I wanted to get closer to someone, I wanted to talk to her.
I was standing there admiring her beauty and she notices me, she looked at me and smiled as if she knew I'd fall for her. She left me there wondering "How could someone have this much of confidence?" though it was not as if she was wrong, I was already in love with her, That's all it took for me to fall in love?
How ashamed I was of myself, to fall in love with someone just like this.
At that day, I learned for the first-hand, How unexpected, How unfair love is.
I thought, " Will I ever meet her again? " She was unknown to me, a stranger. I came back home while trying to not worry about it too much since the new school semester was starting tomorrow (2nd Year of High School).
at home, I made a meal for myself and went to bed early but spent the night- repeating the scene I been through at the train station, imagining many scenarios, similar to "What if she had started a conversation?, What if I was a really handsome and cool guy? How would she have responded?"
and then, Imagining myself as a hero and her as a heroine- Saving a fantasy world together, having a lot of fun and going through an adventurer while defeating demon king.
-What the hell I was doing yesterday night?
I was a mess in the morning. I didn't get sleep at all, I was so busy fantasizing about the girl I saw at the train station that I even creeped out myself.
I went to my high school, not so looking forward to the 2nd year I was about to spend in my high school.
I was not ready for the surprise that was waiting for me in my school, not at all.
To think, the girl I'd fall in love was a transfer student in my school.
Instead of being happy, I was scared. I was scared that What will she thinks of me now that she will find out how much of a loner and pathetic I actually am, who doesn't even have a single friend. It was the first time that I had worried about something like this.
but to my relief I quickly learned, She was a year above me. She was my senpai.
-What would have I done if she was in the same class as me?
I am not sure.
I spent my whole new year at the high school, learning more about her and I came to realize from what I had learned- She is someone that I could never hope to reach.
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--be it sport or study, she excels at everything, on top of that She is a gentle person who is kind to everyone, even to me(She once greeted me in a morning). There were boys who confessed to her, they came back with a smile on their face as if they might have lost the battle but greatly appreciated the experience.
"What the heck? "
I dig into that a little more and found- She rejected everyone and to not hurt anyone she even went to say, " Please don't worry, it just not you. right now, I am not interested in any of boys "
And the first thing came into my mind when I heard that, " Yuri? She is interested in girls! " it really shocked me but thankfully the boy who confessed to her had the same thought in his mind as me and asked her, She was not lesbian.
and I came to understand why the boys were like that, it just not them that got rejected from her, whoever confesses to her in future will also be rejected thus there was no jealousy in them.
I took a breath of relief after learning she doesn't have a boyfriend, though it also meant there was no chance even for me. She even rejected the most handsome guys in the school. I had the lost the battle even before it begins, knowing what would be the outcome.
I myself don't quite understand it but knowing the outcome, knowing that everyone got rejected and will be, it just won't be me, That gave me courage that I needed to convey my feelings to her.
And I did just that, in the summer vacation but I found out that I wasn't even someone, who worth answering.
How Stupid I felt at that moment, How envoys I was to those boys who at least got rejected, whom feelings were at least answered with honesty.
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