As I watch Mark walk out of my room, my eyes start to fill with tears. I love him so much, that when I'm not around him I have a mental breakdown, and I cry and I cry until I have to make a youtube video.
Look at me. I'm ALREADY missing him, but I want to make sure that he was out of the door before I started to cry again.
Waiting a couple of minutes, I peek out of my bedroom door to see if Mark was still there, I'm hoping that he isn't, but blinking away my tears and shaking my head, I go to take another look, I see Mark crying. I slowly walk out of my room, making my footsteps as loud as possible to make sure that he heard me.
Coming up next to Mark, I tap him on the shoulder and ask him if everything was alright, but, Mark just looked up to me, and ran away.
I fall to my knees, and I cry. I didn't care about anything at the moment, I just needed to get all of my emotions out, because I always had to cover up my emotions to make YouTube videos, but I haven't posted at all today, and I have to get a video out in an hour to make sure that no one would worry about him. So, I walked to my computer, and I had a look through steam to see what game I would play today since I didn't have enough time to make a normal video, so, I am going to make a live stream.
When I finally decide on the game I was going to be playing, and I still had 30 minutes left to calm myself down and pretend to be happy.
And then, the video started.