I sigh out loud, looking out of the window. I'm barely hanging on.
Pathetic.
Long time ago, I was a dreamer. I dream great things, bigger than universe. I feel invincible and I believe I could do anything that I set myself to. I grew up with fairytales and thought life was full of rainbows and stars.
Oh How the world likes to crush ignorant and naive people like that. I was the smartest one in my family. Straight A's but of course i dare not to say i am a genius. I was famous, charismatic, I was born a leader.
I scoffed at the thought of that. Yeah. I was on my way studying medicine, three more years and I would've become a doctor. But a man came into my life. Showering me with honey words and lulling me with his gentle actions. Bah! He was a wolf wearing a lamb mask. He destroyed me completely, abused me, made my friends hate me and dominate over me completely.
I ran away and came to my family with two little ones. Bringing them burden that I know would very much hurt them, make people ridicule them... I was at lost, since I was broken inside and out. I was barely hanging on. I had run out of option, and they were my last.
See, the thing is... I know I had crushed their hope. And that ate me the most. I tried hard to find a job, but it seems I couldnt land any decent job in government. I tried all kind of jobs. From receptionist, to seller, to teaching and all... all end up in disaster. Lady luck wasnt on my side, soon whereever I work will either bankcrupt, close down, money problem and so on.. never mind, I thought I just need to find another thing and keep on going.
In the end, I lost. I lie on my bed,staring at the ceiling. I just finished another manga about travelling to another world.
"Is there such thing as reincarnation?" I asked at no one particular. I look at both of my kids, sleeping soundly beside me and smile gently.
"I dare not. That will mean that i had to lose you guys. Of all the misfortune in this world, they are not." I brush their hair gently and spoke with a soft words, not wanting to wake them up.
"Do you guys know? You are my treasure. You are the only reason I am trying to live."
But even then, I know deep inside of me wish, that I could start a new life.. in another fantasy world.. where I can live with my kids happily and lavishly.
If I get to reborn into another world, I wonder... what cheat skills I should get? This popped into my mind as I entertain it for a while, before snickering to myself and stood up.
"Guess its time to cook now" I stretch out and was about to walk toward the door when I feel the vibration in the air, and it was getting hot of a sudden.
I was alarmed, and went to look outside of the window.
Holy shit! A big meteorite was going to hit near our area, which is insane! Impossible! The government wouldve announce something like this in news. Meteorite doesnt appear into thin air! They should be able to detect it few weeks before it drop through the layer of atmosphere and make an impact. I was look around, panicking and then I jump over my kids, covering us with a pile of clothes, pillows and blanket.
There wasnt enough time to run. At least I need to protect them.
That was my last thought, as everything flash white and then black.