It was a hard day. She came back home and went into her room. Without opening any lights, she opened music player on her phone and played '_ _ _ _ ' on repeat. She lied down on her bed, and closed her eyes and thought about memories. This had been her routine for about an month. This was the thing she does whenever she was exhausted or tired. This was the only way how she could feel close to him...
6 months ago, she just finished reading the recently uploaded chapter of chinese novels she been reading for months. At the end of chapter, the translator recommended about a game which interested her alot. She had been thinking whether to play this game or not. At last, she decided to play and joined the server the translator was in. The early months were not very interesting. It was a card game but she never played this kind of before so she had to read the suggestions on website. After about a month, she got invited to join the strongest faction in east side. The game had two sides, west and east. She was in east and the faction she was in was slowly dying. She decided to join that faction. It was friendly and helping faction and she became one of deputy leader of faction after few weeks.
She didnt know him until she joined the whatsapp of the faction. Though she and other members usually interact in game, same faction members were the most united ones. The faction(guild) had different wa(whatsapp) groups. She was in every wa groups. She had a great time until one member mentioned in game chat that he was really strong. Even when the might(like power) difference is above 100k, he could still beat those whose might was higher than him. That interested her. She joined the game earlier than him so her might was at least 90k higher than him. She competed with his character secretly and she lost. She competed lots of time and she lost everytime.
Because of that, she sent a pm(private message) to him in game chat and confronted him how he could be so good at this game. She didnt remember his first reply cos he was not important to her then. She had a habit of forgetting people whom were not important to her.
He took a look at her formation. Yes, that game had five heroes formation and had to arrange properly to win. From that moment, all his messages were very vivid to her cos she wanted to be strong. He asked her to send a ss of all heroes stat to his wa pm. And after looking through her heroes, the one sentences he said her was 'i wanted to flip u. How could you ignore all your treasures?' That first night, the night she spammed him to help her, they talked till the middle of night. Since then, he and she were always texting each other on phone through wa. From games to about personal things, they talked everything. They had been good friends. She knew he sometimes flirted with her but she was a naive in those things and didnt noticed. Her replies were always cold though friendly. His messages were always warm. After about 4 or 5 months, she confessed that she liked him.
He politely declined her that he was not a good person and asked if they could still be friends. She said yes. She knew they were drifting apart but she was the type of person who would keep everything to herself. He was the first one whom she let her opinions and thoughts know except her bffs. Eventually they lost contact. It was not becos of she gave up. It is cos she feel ashamed and felt she had been clingy to him which she shouldnt.
She asked herself why she had been so sad about letting him go. The answer was she didnt know. She asked herself whether she had ever owned him. The answer was no. Then she reminded herself that there was nothing she shouldnt be sad about letting him go cos she had never own him or possess him. She was content with the memories he left.
The time he sang songs from discord while they texting each other, the time they fought the bully in game together, the time they planned something evil to bully another player in game together, the time he was happy for her whenever she got a good thing in game, the roses he sent to her whenever she was about to do something concerning with fate, he said roses are lucky, his lucky roses. Those were all memories she had with him. Though she and he never met in real life, though they only know each other through just a phone number, they were close friends. He was her best friend. He was her companion.
He also left game.. She never saw him again. Never contact again. Though they exchanged their social media, she never tried to contact him again, afraid that those memories would be destroyed.
Those weeks he reduce contacts with her, it had been hard on her. She had to rely on her bffs to build herself again. Though she was now back to her usual self, she knew herself, she will still be broken in the deepest part of her soul.