'How can I face your tenderness since I realized that I was never good enough for you?'
Xia De Ming
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Can I say that I am so addicted to his kisses? His kisses deliver such happiness that I never experienced before. His kisses are sweet then in sudden make me forget the sorrows and misfortunes that I was going through. Perhaps people will see me as a mad woman but I don't care. My arms locked on his neck while responding to every kiss that he sowed in my lips. I don't know how long we are standing on the street while kissing.
I will never forget these sweetest kisses in my life.
I don't know how long this happiness will stay because now I know, Chen Sheng Lin in rage of anger. Perhaps he will kill me but I don't mind about this baby. Let the baby die with me as he can make another baby with another girl. I just want to stay away from that devil and life with Xia De Ming.
"Bai He Lian, I want to show you something." Xia De Ming stopped kissing me and looked into my eyes.
He holds my hand tightly as we are waiting for the bus pass on the bus station. We didn't talk much but I'm really happy to be standing beside him like this. We hop on into a bus that stopped. This moment I feel we are like other common couples who sit in their seats.
I am so tired but so happy as Xia De Ming still holds my palm until I sleep on his cold shoulder.
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"Bai He Lian, wake up. We arrived already." He said.
"Uhm." I open my eyes, I am still sleepy but his bright smile makes me forget how tired I am.
"This is the last stop."
"Okay."
We are walking from the last station to wherever. We kept walking without destiny but we knew one thing… We just want to live together.
The weather became colder than usual and snow fell to the ground. I have not asked Xia De Ming for anything because I trust him.
We stopped in a house made from wood in the forest. Xia De Ming looks at me. This place is low temperature and the white snow covered the ground as I can't see the sun. As long as Xia De Ming is with me wherever we live it doesn't matter.
"He Lian, do you want to live here with me? I think I will live here with you because no one knows about us here." He explained. "I hope…you want to…"
Oh My God! I nodded at him before he finished his words. I never imagined Xia De Ming would say that to me today. I am so nervous because I am so happy. I don't care about anything else. In this world, I just have Xia De Ming and he is more than enough for me.
He draws me closer until I can touch his chest with my palms. His body is so cold and I can't feel his heartbeat like I feel that devil's heartbeat. This fact makes me worry about Xia De Ming more.
"Xia De Ming, are you okay?" I asked him. "Please tell me if that devil does something to you?" I panicked when I saw a bruise around his neck. Yes, with this position I can see his neck clearer. "Xia De Ming…"
"Bai He Lian, just forget about him for a while. Just look at me, alright?" He is smiling but I can sense the fear in his eyes.
"Alright then. " I replied to him. "But how do you know about this place?" I asked.
"Since I knew you, I have started to find a peaceful place for us."
"What? "
"Yes. I tell you the truth. Bai He Lian, do you know that I love you since I saw you for the first time."
"Eh?"
I am so amazed with his answer. It means he likes me from our first encounter, right? Why does this fact make me so happy?
"Why do you look so surprised?" He asked. "Bai He Lian, I just want to spend time with you. I hope I have good memories with you. Please remember me always."
He rubs my cheek gently. His tender gaze makes me melt. How could I not love him? He is the sweetest man that I ever met. I wanted to kiss him but at the same time he kissed my forehead then stared at me again.
"Trust me. Bai He Lian, I will never hurt you."
"Uhm. I trust you."
Xia De Ming guides me to get in the house. He still holds my hand then soon I realize his hand swelling. Yesterday I didn't see it but now it appears. Is he alright? His face became pale too. What's happened to him? What Chen Sheng Lin had done to him?
"Xia De Ming, why is your hand swollen?"
"Uhm? What?"
Soon Xia De Ming released my hand. He was shocked but managed to keep calm while giving his bright smile in front of me but his smile cannot ease my heart now.
"Could you please let me know what's happened to you?! Do you know that I am so worried about you?"
Xia De Ming is still smiling at me. It's unbelievable. How come he can be so calm while I am so stressful thinking about him?
"Xia De Ming, don't you know that I am so worried about you!"
Xia De Ming hugs me suddenly while taking a deep long breath.
"Bai He Lian, I know. Could you please just accompany me without asking more questions? Your presence is more than enough for me. Even though I am so selfish now, I promise you that I will never hurt you. Just please don't ask me again. I just want to keep our memories. Can I?"
"But can you tell me what's happening?"
"Trust me. I just want you to look around. Bai He Lian, this is our small castle." He answered.
I obey him. I look around. In this homey living room there is wooden furniture and a fireplace. Did Xia De Ming arrange all? He showed me all the rooms and I am so excited to spend my life here with him. Actually this is my dream home. I always imagine that I have a small wooden house and there is a fireplace from stones like this.
"Let me set the fire for you." He said.
"Thank you." I hug him from behind as I wish to get some warmth from him but his body is so cold. I almost freeze from hugging him but I don't want him to know about this so I keep hugging him even though I feel cold torment me.
Then in sudden…
Brack!!