I stay awake
Every night
I see the stars
Closer to see
Yet so far
Just like you
As you..
I wake up early in the morning. I don't know at what time I slept last night but I feel like what I dream of is real.. Like I can see her smiling face in front of me.
A sudden knock break my chain of thoughts. Mom peeks through ajar door " son.. It's time for breakfast. You should come downstairs after washing. And come soon okay.. Dad and I want to talk about some matters." my mom said while looking at me with those sad eyes.
"Okay.. I'll be there in 15 minutes mom.. And you two start eat while I'm coming " I said and trying to smile. I know it's hard time for both of them but a normal gesture that I'm okay wouldn't be mind.
" stop pretending boy.. I know all " mom said and shuts the door behind her back to go downstairs.
When I reached the dining table I noticed that they both haven't touched their food. I feel more guilty about all the people around me.. Mom, dad and aisha.. They all are sad just because of me.
I sat on my chair and took a sandwich with orange juice. I gesture mom to start eating and they also took a sandwich with orange juice.
"So when will be your treatment going to start? " dad asked me when he finished his breakfast.
" I don't know dad, they're still trying to find the donor but I don't have much time left on my account " I said eying the table.
Mom started sobbing and clutched dad's forarm. I don't want them to break down like her.. She is behind the shadows while they know the whole truth about my sickness.
I stand up and hug her and she drape her arms around me and hug me tighter like she's not ready to loose me.
"Dad my chemotherapy will be start from next week. I have to catch my evening flight to start the session as soon as possible according to Dr Thomas. " my chances are thin to survive due to my cancer which is on second stage and spreading quickly. But dad and mom are trying hard to get me hospitalised to save me. They love me so much that it hurts to see them cry like this. I'm their only child since they lost their first newborn due to same disease. Their first born son was only three months old when doctors detected cancer cells in his body. They lost him because they could not find the suitable donor for the baby. And when Ryhaan was born they were concerned about his health.
It's not long ago that they find out that their son is having cancer and he's on second stage.
This news created havoc in their life. Ryhaan didn't want to tell about this to Aisha so he pretends like he's into some other girl. He told her that she's not his type and he wants to date the hottest girl of their university. Her ashen face and tears are still stabbing like thousand knives in his heart. He don't want her to know about his disease. He promised her to give her happiness so how can he see her mourning over him. He saw her when her parents died and how broken she was.. It's like she forgot to live her life. He don't want to let her go on that same path again for himself.