Tonight,
The silence is talking
My eyes are drowning
My breath is gasping
And you've left me
With nothing...
-Perry poetry.
Finally the facade i created began to melt and erupting a raging fire inside my bones. I had enough, I'm trying to be strong for don't know how long but this morning i broke down.
He said he loves me, but the question in my heart didn't falter by his claims.
Yeah, you're thinking right.. We are loving each other from 5 years but we just not only love each other but we have lots of memories when we snapped at each other . For me it's natural in a relationship to love and show anger sometimes ..
But today I'm just broken beyond words. He's leaving me for someone else because he thinks we have major understanding issues I know it's not making sense right? How the hell is this possible after five years . Yeah I love him then what is the issue if we have some different opinions on some matters, today my whole world crumbled in front of my eyes.. He said he loves me then why is he leaving me. If he loves someone else then he could just said it rather then playing with my emotions,. saying he had lost interest in me.
Suddenly I heard footsteps coming towards my room and I cover my head with duvet and closed my eyes.
"hey.. Are you sleeping?? You haven't your dinner yet. Come lets eat something okay then sleep otherwise tom and jerry will fight in your little stomach " Sam , my twin brother said while peeking through door. Though his name is Sayyam Verma but I like Sam more.
I lay down like a log. Not moving an inch and waiting for him to assume that I'm in deep sleep.
" Aishu I'm not going to let you sleep empty stomach. Come lets go downstairs and eat something. I know you're not sleeping. " Sam said and then he pulled out my duvet.
" What are you doing Sammy, let go of my duvet and let me sleep I'm not in a mood for anything ".. I said through irritating tone.
" like I'm going to listen to you huh! Remember mom and dad always said we shouldn't skip our meal no matter what, we even promised them that we'll never skip our meal if we have resources to fill our stomach " Sammy said and sat beside me. I don't want to meet his eyes because I know he'll understand about my pain and sorrow. And I was dead right about it.
"I know something happen between you two but I won't ask unless you tell me by yourself. You have me Aishu with you always no matter how complicated things would be.."
And there I sobbed hard in his arms.. I was weeping like I did when our parents passed away in an accident when we were 15 years old. We have no one to look upon. It's just we are lonely in this world. We had many relatives but they all showed their back towards us, they think since our parents are no more then we'll going to depend on them so they never talk to us warmly.