In the end, Li Wei didn't voice her thoughts.
She could only watch as Khan Bojing's back get smaller. With each step he took, her heart became heavier. Was this how he felt every time she left him? She often left him calling her name. She never considered how he felt, reaching out to empty air.
In the past, she was not a good person. When she laid in the rain, taking her last breaths, she was willing to sacrifice anything to tell him that she loved him. This time, he was no longer the Khan Bojing she knew.
Their circumstances had been changed. They were once bound together because of the baby they created, but now they have choices. To be together, they must choose each other's.
When she held out her hand, he didn't take it. He didn't choose her. In this life, he no longer had feelings for her, but Khan Bojing was not to blame. After all, was it fair that only she remembered their past life and her past feelings?
To come all the way to Hai'an and stayed for three years, she was indeed determined to see him again, to meet with the man she abruptly parted with. Her hopes were high, but she was narrow minded. She only considered her own life and feelings. What if he didn't want to be with her?
In the past, she came to love him because of his kindness, care, and love. If he had been reborn, remembering her evil character, would he choose to love her again?
Like he said, his name tied him to the crown. He lived his life running away from his father, whom he could never change. Someone he could never denied.
Khan Bojing spent his youth helping Li Zhilan. He loved her for many years, all the while knowing that she loved someone else. He helped Hua Xifeng and Li Zhilan rose to rule Na'an. Even when his heart was bleeding, he was the pillar that held them high.
He had lived his life for other's, sacrificing to fulfill other's wishes.
He even married her, because he was too good of a man to leave, even if she was the devil. He loved their son, even if she didn't. He treated her with respect, support, and care as his empress. If he was the one that had been reborn, he would probably not choose her.
If the only thing she could do for him was to let him determine his own future, then so be it.
At least in this life, she would give him a choice.
With a deep breath, she turned around.
Under the moonlight, the distance between two figures grew as they both walked their own paths.