I love shu so much but he continues to hate me .But when he wants me he can use my body as a distraction. And i know he is not a bad person but it hurts me to know that my body is just a toy to him . And i just let him do it to me. And i tried to make him love me but i fail at it. If only he knew i was pregnant with twins . But i hide it from him im scared he will leave me . so i hide it.