Inside the emergency room. I kept my head down and keep pulling down the hoodie up to my face so that the people I know can't recognize me. What on earth I end up here.
I keep looking to the man who brought me here. I am sitting at the receiving area and him? There he was processing my paper. Since he didn't know everything about me even my name, he gave me the form to fill up.
I even don't know his name. Can he give me his name at least? Just for formality?
He still standing in front of me. I can't think properly now so I just signed the papers so that we'll not take any longer. I didn't want to be here. Sitting and waiting alone keeps me wavered. I can't keep my eyes focused. It keeps turning around checking any patients that is confined here inside the emergency. My hands also keep sweating.
"There's no need for this you know. Can't I just go home?" -Still asking the man.
I know I work here but I really don't feel the ambiance, the vibe I've been feeling right now.
It is different when I work. Because when I work I am confined with lot of works too busy to think any. And when I'm at the laboratory it feels like I am in another world because for me you will get stock there till your shift is done. But now? Nothing here keeps me busy.
And as far as I know, I thought I've already overcome this feeling. I guessed I was wrong. *Inhale *Exhale I repeated this for several times. I am trying to keep myself calmed but my body can't. And I am starting to feel nausea.
I stand up, my feet are shaking, can't stand steadily. I was moving forward to the man who brought me here. Nurses are too busy to notice me. I know it's just a simple burnt but why it leads me to be like this?
I pulled the sleeves of the man. "Can I just go?" whispering. I need to get out or I will become a real patient here. And it is not good for me.
The man saw my states. And for the first time I saw some expression of him now, but not so obvious. He talked to the nurse. He cancelled the papers. The nurse saw me and I know she know me, because when she's about to approach me the doctor came and discussed something. So she asks us to wait for a while. I keep my head down.
"No miss it is okay now" Mr. said when the nurse came back. "Just told us what's medicine used for burnt?" since the nurse already know. She keeps on glancing to me and to the man who brought me here, looking confused. "You can buy this over the counter sir" the nurse said. "Okay." And we leave the front desk of the emergency.
Well at least he does have consideration now. He does not leave me there at the recieving area. He let me go with him to the pharmacy; at least I know I am not alone. It has a lot of people lining up there. So he decided not to proceed and dragged me outside this emergency. Well where is he taking me now?
But this is okay than being confined there. I feel a bit easy now not just like when I'm inside the emergency. I breathe deeply then let it out. I am being calmed.
But he still dragging me. Feeling like my arm would pulled out anytime.
"Can't you stop dragging me please? I am not your pet." My patience is in its limit now. I know he is just concerned. But did he ask me if I want him to be concerned to me? "I want to go now please." "I don't even know your name, but you are still dragging me!" he did not answer. And now he is back to being expressionless. Still he doesn't listen to me.
We were now in the park near the hospital. "Wait me up here." He let me sit one of the bench and then he leave. As if I could wait.
As he walk away from me, I am not a pervert okay well I will just tell you what I am seeing right now. He has a great built of body; like Deity walking in a ground, so majestic. Woah! Stop thinking like that Yu. What a shameless girl.
Well we all do have a desire like that and it is a human nature. So don't just me okay?
And as I can't see him anymore, I stand up even though I want to know him. Maybe this will be our first and last meeting Mr. "Thank you for your concerned." I whispered in air. I know he is just concerned about my burnt but it is not his fault if I just keep my head straight this will not happen.
But really hate him when he dragged me to emergency without even asking if I am okay with it. Maybe some of you will be touch, but not me.
I walked to my dorm leaving him there. "Sorry God if I am being mean to that guy" I prayed. I know I am being mean here. But God knows how I struggled tonight. I need to rest that's all.
I passed the store where all these starts I want to buy, but I can't, I still feel ashamed of what happened earlier. I even forgot to eat earlier and now aside from being stressed I am hungry.
Oh! I remembered that I still have my hotdog sandwich and bottled water. Luckily I am still holding this till now. So I directly head to my dorm. So that i can eat and rest after.
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Meanwhile~~ On the other side where she left the guy~~~~
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Where is she? I know I left her here? He ask holding a paper bag with medicine and a food that he bought from starbucks.
He walked back to the hospital. He looked at what he bought. And when he saw a trashed bin he then threw all the items he bought except for the paper he is holding after they left the emergency room. The registration form of the girl who bumped him in the store.
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