"I should have just mustered the courage to come to you and solve our differences instead of delegating it to Lochra first, then to Malyshka, and my apprentices. I was supposed to be an adult, yet I ran away all my life like a scared child.
"And don't get me started with how stupid I acted when Bytra nearly killed you. After saving your life, I should have stayed with you. Make sure that everything was alright so that we could hunt her down like mother and daughter.
"Instead, I let myself be carried away by my emotions. The trauma from Threin's death almost drove me crazy, affecting my skills. The procedure would have failed if I hadn't already added it to the tower's enchantments.
"I barely succeeded at the cost of gravely injuring my life force. Yet even then I let my rage consume me. I chose to ignore my and your condition, chasing after Bytra like a fool and falling into her trap.
