Lith took a deep breath, looking Phloria straight in the eyes as his inner turmoil tore him apart. He wanted to tell her everything, yet he couldn't. Lith didn't have the strength to handle the rejection in the case Phloria pushed him away after learning about his Abomination origin.
If she accepted him anyway, just like she had done four years back at the academy and two years later at Jirni's birthday party, it would have been more than he could take. Dealing with Kamila and Solus was already hard, adding Phloria to the mix would have been just cruel.
Even worse, it would mean putting her before his girlfriend and prove that Phloria had been right when she had accused him to use her as a guinea pig. To observe her reaction to his ugliest secrets and use the collected data to decide whether or not to share them with Kamila as well.
That Phloria had been right when she had accused him to keep her as a replacement in the case his current relationship ended.
