Li Xueyue did not know what the Emperor meant. She had a lot of questions in her mind but she stood by his side and allowed him to hold her hands as he confessed his sins to her. Why was he telling her this? What was his purpose? Was there an underlying message to his words?
"I was not the best father," he admitted.
Li Xueyue rapidly blinked. She already knew that.
"I did not treat my sons with kindness…" he breathed out. "For I never received compassion from my father."
Li Xueyue did not know that.
"I did not become the father I've always wanted as a child…" He let out a small cough and patted at his chest.
"Now that I am approaching death, a-and welcoming him with open arms," he murmured and took a deep gasp of air before he continued on, "I've realized, in the process of making rulers out of them… I lost my sons."