I feel as though I am having a terrible dream. I feel as though I hear hushed voices but I knoe very well that I am quite tipsy. It like a never ending dream of the man I love and my best friend arguing but I can't believe what I am hearing! It has to be a dream! It can't be real! But I won't dare get up. I won't move! I won't make a sound. Because if I do, if I move, if I even cry, it all becomes much to real.
"How could you possibly still love her?"
"Why does it matter?"
"You told me you were leaving her! I am carrying your child! Do you honestly think I will not tell her?"
"It doesn't matter she will never believe you and I'll never admit that it's mine!"
That can't be true. It can't be! how could the two people I love most in this world do this to me? I trusted him with my best friend of 11 years! I trusted her with my boyfriend of 3! How could this be possible? My mind must be playing tricks on me! Im drunk is all i can keep thinking to myself. Thats all. Just a terrible drunken dream!
"It doesn't matter if she believes you or not! The paternity test will prove it once the baby is born! Then what will you tell the, person you love, my best friend. What will you tell Samantha?" Katrina questioned.
Calvin throws questions back, "Yea go ahead tell her! You think your friendship will withstand this? Ha! If you think that then you are dumber than I originally thought! You think Samantha is going to accept your honesty and forgive you? While she can not conceive and that is her biggest dream! To give me a child!"
This can't be happening, I keep thinking to myself. Why does alcohol give me terrible dreams like this? They love me and I love them! How could that s**t y of a human being do this after I gave her a place to live? I took her in! I loved her! I told her about my infertility! I then felt the tears running down my face. They were burning hot! These tears felt like fire that had died out so long ago! I must not allow them to know I am awake! I will make them feel as they have made me feel! I will let them feel the betrayal! I will make them hurt! Revenge will be served and karma will be no where in the mixture!