Now looking back I can visibly tell all the signs that my body showed me. The nervousness, sweated palms, heat.
My body knew what was coming, it knew what kind of consequences would he bring me. I think I knew too, I was just already into so deep that I simply ignored it.
I shouldn't have.
That moment in the car I when he told me he missed me, I should stopped him, told him that I hated him grab my bags and never seeing him again.
Did I do that? I wish.
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"I missed you too"
"I know little one" He said with a smile on his face. He was mocking me, like always.
"I'm not so little anymore " I said back, looking him in the eye, trying to look grown up. My smile widened when I saw him smirking.
" Oh really" He asked his face itching closer to mine, his eyes on my lips.
I murmured a mhm, while waiting for what he would do.
I was so caught up in the moment, I didn't ever realize what was happening.
His hand moved from the steering wheel towards my head. He moved my hair out of my eyes, staring into me.
I was so still, I forgot that he wasn't mine, I forgot that what we were doing was wrong.
I wanted this, I knew what was going to happen, I could have stopped it.
His lips were so soft. The kiss was unbelievable gentle, warm, caring...loving?
My body was on fire, I couldn't think, I melted on the spot. I have been kissed before, but it never felt so intense, so right.
But that wasn't right and knowing that didn't stop me from kissing him back. Our lips moved in syncs, his body pressing into mine as much as it could being limited by the little space between the car seats.
He slowly backed away, just an inch.
" I don't like this" he eventually said, still looking in my eyes, just like that moment we had never happened.
"What?"
"This outfit you have on" He said.
I just looked at him like he was dumb. I guessed I didn't realize the possessive glint in his eyes, but when he saw that I didn't get what he was trying to say, he continued.
"Can you change? Their cousin is there, I don't want him looking at you in this" he explained, while looking at me with his big green eyes.
"No, I'm not going to change " I said confidentially, with a smirk on my lips. I was mocking him, my body burned with confidence and I didn't know why, but the feeling that we were doing something that we weren't supposed to, got me so turned on and I didn't want that to stop.
So I played I dangerous game.
"You will."
" why?" I asked. " Don't you think I looked nice? " I said tracing my finger across my chest, on the outline of my tank top.
His eyes followed my fingers, and then he looked at me.
intense, and... hot.
Damn was it hot.
I was playing with fire, I knew it. But I couldn't help myself. I saw how much of an influence I have on him. And I was drunk on it.
I bit my lip.
His breathing quickened.
Next thing I know his lips are again on mine. But this time it was different.
He was kissing me roughly, his tongue invited my mouth, tasting me.
Biting my lips, kissing my neck, sucking on my skin,his hand stroking my thighs.
I was drunk on him, I was hot, the butterflies in my stomach had turned into a whole zoo.
And then he looked at me, and in that moment I unknowingly fell for him, hard.
"Done" he said with a big smile on his face.
"You're mine now"
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A few minutes later we were in font of their house. We stepped out of the car and my neighbors and their cousin were sitting on a rug near the poll, chillin in the sun.
His girlfriend waved and stood up. And then it struck me what we have done.
What I have done.
I just kissed my neighbors/friends boyfriend.
I just made out with her boyfriend.
And then shame took over me. Shame and guilt.
I watched her coming towards us, she was exactly the same as last year, even more beautiful.
" Hey what took you guys so long?" she asked with a big smile on her face.
Flashback of his lips on my skin, his hands on my body...
His voice interrupted my guilt, or was it dreaming? I wasn't sure anymore, i wanted this but at the same time I didn't.
"She forgot her laptop, so I had to wait for her to go get it" He said to her, then looked at me for confirmation.
I just nodded smiling. She just shrugged taking His hand, pulling him along.
He turned towards me and winked.
Warmth spread through my chest and I knew that it was all right.
I trusted him with my life.
It's going to be all right.
So I followed them.
" Hello little one" The other neighbor/friend and her cousin greeted me at the same time. I hugged her and nodded at her cousin, who was going in for a hug.
I still haven't forgot about last year, but I let it slide away. After all it was in the past, so I hugged him back.
A cough interrupted our hug and I turn to see Him with his angry gaze us.
" What?" I asked and laughed. "We haven't see each other in such a long time"
" I don't think your boyfriend would be okay with you hugging other men" He then said.
" What boyfriend?" Asked the cousin.
"The one that gave her the big hickey on her neck" Squealed His girlfriend excited.
I looked at Him, a big knowing smirk on his lips.
And then I realized what he said earlier in the car.
"done"
"you're mine now"
That jerk just "marked" me as his. And his girlfriend and friends think that I have a secret boyfriend.
And that secret boyfriend is him.
And that's how the lies began.
And that was another sign that I should stayed the hell away from him. But the sad part? I didn't want to anymore.
I was his now. I just didn't know at the time.