Chapter 34 - WITHOUT YOU

Slowly walking towards her grandpa Alys eyes turned sour as spring of tears flow down her delicate white cold skin. Her heart churn in anguish as she hug her grandpas cold body in the cold night she called him "Grandpa!"

She tightly hug him and whisper "Oh grandpa!!! How could this happen to you!. Who did this so cruelly to you?! How could he be so heartless, taking you away? Made you suffer inhumanely!!! "

Looking at him so gently with her redden eyes "im sorry grandpa, i came to you so late, what is the use of me being strong if i can't even protect you?." She ask him with all her heart full of regret

Slowly, heart beating. Thump.. thump... thump

On the verge of dying i heard the voice of my lovely granddaughter, my angel, our light. I can't say a word, i can't move. All i can do is listen to her painfully asking me the words i could only answer in mind.

How in the world am i going to say my final words?. If not for that concoction, im already as good as dead.

"what am i going to say to grandma once we get home?"

My dear, don't say a word. It may be hard but your grandma will understand

"how am i going to make grandma smile in your place?"

Just stay by her side, you are our joy, our pride and our light. Having you lighten up our world.

Bangs covering his face. Augh, im making her cry again.

Tears then silently flow from the old mans eyes as he silently weep to the outcome of the recklessness he made. she cry her words full of agony

"how am i going to make you proud when you are already gone?"

Im already as proud, more pleased than a king. I had a beautiful and loving granddaughter. You are talented in many ways, you are my pride and joy.

"you asked me not to leave but why did you?."

I didn't want to and didn't mean to, its just that my fate has already been sealed long long ago. Meeting you and having you is just my extra reward for my very long hard - work and i thank God for that.

"where am i going to start?"

You may start anytime... as long as you are alive, you can start a new. As long as you have fate and that you believe. Be brave, nothing is impossible for the heart that is aiming to be strong.

"without you.. how am i....,"

"how are we going to live a happy life when all this years im so used to being alive with you and grandma, spending a peaceful and joyful life?."

Even so, making you happy, letting you live like a normal person is us adults job, no, it is our responsibility to make sure you live a warm and healthy life. You still have your grandma, she will stay with you. In my absence, you will feel lost. You will be sad but that is all there is to it.

She weep and cried her heart out, with all honesty, she lovingly ask the old man laying in her arms as she look at him so gently "tell me what are we going to do without you?" stroking his white hair covering his face which let lose from its tie.

Time flies and you will be healed. One day, you will realize that life is about being born while growing and finding love along the way and dying is just not the end of everything. I will watch over you and grandma, always.

The two of them stayed at their position as everything was lit by the small light floating in the wind. They stayed till sunrise, until the night fall and the old woman together with some village people witness the excruciating scene of their lives. The scene that is both serene and painful to see, under the watch of the bright moonlight, snow falling as if it is mourning for their loss, covering the various flowers, grass and tress around with its cold white frost.

"A-ly?my dear is.. that you?" her brows creased uneasily

"are you OK?, lets go home..."

"have you seen your, who is that?."

Realizing something odd as she knew her granddaughter will never hug an stranger in an intimate pose, the old woman unconsciously covered her lips with her trembling hands as she shed a tear, walking towards her laying husband and tattered granddaughter who has seem to had lost the shines in her eyes.

A silent sixteen year old girl, look at her grandpa without saying a word, no longer shedding a tear.

The people that witnessed the scene can't help but shiver from cold, from the painful scene they cried as well. Some hugged their husband and cried "who did this to him?."

While the others fall from their knees and started weeping as well "he was a good man". Some people chose to silently watch and avoid making any noise.

Her hands tremble in fear as she slowly reach the face of the old man, gently caressing it with care. His cold sipped through her hands. Her tears continually pouring down she hugged the body of her husband and lay down above him. Her world shattered in million pieces, losing him means losing her other half. Her heart felt like its somewhere else when it is with her.

"my Love, welcome back.." she smiled at him and look at the little girl beside her.

i wanted to say many things, i wanted to complain and curse and swear! but the culprit, how am i going to do that in front of my granddaughter who never move ever since we arrived?. She was traumatized, i may have felt like my heart isn't with me but for this little girl. It seems like her world stop from spinning.

She let go of her husband and reach for her granddaughters shoulder and hands and hugged her tight. "my dear, grandma is here" Aly look at her blankly then a fear slightly showed itself from her dull eyes and she fell down.

Her grandma catch her and painfully smiled "let us go home" turning her head to his husband and once again touch his face "lets go home.. my love"..

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Sighing, "we are going back" he crumpled the letter he received at the meat-shop and get back to the inn to get their belonging then walk out the inn.

Running after Jang, Ray asked "we found nothing yet so why are we going back? I thought we won't go home till we found the badge we're looking for?"

"forget about it, its already done so we will go back as instructed"

"why do you always wear a poker face?. Don't you know how to smile?. Oh.. sometimes when that poker face of yours wear off, do you know what i see?"

"what?" he look at Ray as if looking at an ant

"just like that!, damn it!!!. Your scary looking face like you were about to devour or eat whole anything at your sight!"

"must be because i see nothing good"

"nothing good your face!.. even if a beautiful girl standing naked in your sight, wiggle her butt or showing her pussy, or even put your cock in her inside and rub it on you!." He sigh " i doubt you will show any manly reactions!. Even if i show you a box of gold and treasures i will only see the same poker face! there is no such thing as good to you, perhaps it does not even exist in your dictionary!"

"tell me, do you still wanna live?."

"of course, you are the only one who doesn't want!"

"then quit whining if you don't wanna be taken with me to another world!"

"boooooo.. such a bully hmmp!" he then crossed his arms on his chest and didn't talk again

"sir, how much is this one here?"

"oh.. that is two hundred thousand taels, it was a well bread one among the rest of my pets."

"i see, i shall take this then.." he then took out a pouch consisting of two hundred thousand taels and gave it to the store owner

"oh.. thank you" i finally receive a hefty amount enough to cover my lost for the past month

"why do you need to buy that?."

Isn't it obvious?. Why is this man so stupid?. "are you stupid?"

"Of course not"

"then why do you think did i bought this?"

"its so we could ride it back home, am i right?"

You know yet you're asking me why!"you are such a stupid blubbering monkey!" and then "Kapow!"

He covered his aching head "hey why did you do that for?"

"Shut up monkey!!! Don't ask me when you already know the answer idiot!"

"hey! You don't have to shout at me!." Monkey?

"then shut the hell up your trap and don't you ever open your mouth again today or i will leave your fucking ass behind!" he then ride the horse, kicking it "neeyy!!!"

"hey! Hey! Hey! Wait for me!!!" he then run after the horse like a mad man racing for his life "i didn't even talk yet you're leaving me behind!.. Jang!"

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"here is the pin just as i promised!" huffing the emperor gave the pin reluctantly

"hmm thank you uncle.. can't wait for my next pen to break" she smiled and gave a cold look to her uncle as her uncle felt a chill running down his back "what do you mean by that?."

"guess it yourself" she sit back to her newly built desk and organized her things back to its original positions, from the book to her notes till her medicinal equipment and herbs.

"do you have to arrange those things over and over again?. isn't it tiring? Do you want me to give you someone who will assist you?."

"no need for that, i'd rather do things myself. I had many things to do and write, i bet that helper will only be a burden instead"

"booo so rude, how can you be so sure?" he pouted and ask her why.

She took a piece of paper and wave it in front of the emperor "can you read this uncle?."

"ok stop waving!.. let me see it then"

Stunned, O_O "is this... an other worldly writings?"

Brows twitching, well im sorry if my writings are bad.. i just happened to write it when im on my weary state! "its my writing!.. now, did you understand why i don't need anyone's help uncle?"

"ehh?.." he look into the sheet again and tries his very best to read but to no avail, sighing "i understand.. i won't bother you about this again" there is actually a beautiful girl who writes like a drunkard!... narrowing his eyes, this look more like an chicken feet strokes...

"good bye uncle, rest well " she continued working on her desk organizing everything on sight.

Looking at the desk, he scratched his chin "i will do that later, what is that data for?" he pointed at the jam-packed of notes on the desk.

She look at where her uncle pointed to "oh this.."

"is that Lenards?" he look at her and only saw a slight smile appear on her pale red lips

"hmm but it was not completed yet" suddenly that smile was turned to a frown, her brows knitted as she bit her lower lips hard.. "its been six days and he does not make even a slight move"

"i believe in you" he smiled and look straight into her eyes "of all people it was i who knew you well. I know that you will find a way to help him escape his fate. You will not lose.. i will not accept if you lose to anything specially to a mere poison!"

Sometimes despite his natural ability of being an airhead, what stunned me the most is his positivism toward things and people. He is the type that gave people hope even without trying. The Emperor my uncle...

"but Yukihina its much better if you do it faster.... you know the due date is nearing though i trust your capability im still worried"

My uncle.. is an annoying airhead after all!!!.. he has no sense of humor nor common sense! He always say negative comments after saying positive one! He was the type that spit bullshit while wearing a fucking innocent face!

"damn it uncle! You idiot!" she shouted at him which made the emperor himself confused "did i do something bad again?"