I was still red after what happened yesterday. And yesterday when I left, I didn't bother getting the food or going back to his place, I just went home but after an hour Dillion started calling and texting me and I just... couldn't talk to him. I like Dillion but we aren't together and there was no reason for him to do that, I been a virgin for over 2,500 years so it was my first to see a guy naked. Many Demons in Hell were practical asking me out because they either want actually date me or the just want to take the throne, so I said no to all of them, I want a guy that loves me for me... and I think found him but I'm not to sure Dillion likes me the way I like him. Even though I saw him naked, it's possible that he just wants to get into my pants. Anyway today was pretty lonely so I just stayed in bed but I'm have a strange feeling that I just want to kill humans, im sure it's my demon side wanting the thirst for human blood and flesh. I want to hear them scream and want to see their blood splatter on the wall. I couldn't take it anymore, I grabbed a knife, ran outside, and snuck into a house. I walked into a couple's bed room and started slicing them to bits, their blood splattered on me and their organs I pulled them out and dropped the on the floor expect for their heart, I put them in a plastic bag that they had in their kitchen and went home, cooked the hearts till they were nice and brown. I started to chow down the organs but made sure I was savoring the taste. After I was done I started to think about Dillion and my mom, would they understand that I couldn't fight the inner demon that I have possessed every since I was born or would they wouldn't understand and tell me that I have human side that can fight the demon. To them, I'm sure they think it's easy but did they ever think that a demon is stronger than a human and an angel is stronger than a demon. I'm not going to tell Dillion about what I did but I hope if does find out that he will stick with me thick and thin.