I told my Mother i was going to go do some errands, and she said okay, which was a relief, i admit, i wanted to look more pretty than Taylor herself, she had her own baby now, and as far as i know, she and Max aren't a thing anymore.
I pull up to the salon, hoping to fix my hair and all of that, i wanted to look beautiful, not ugly anymore actually. I hoped i would. "Hello, a girl said."How can i help you?" "i um, booked a salon appointment earlier, I say.
"Name?"
"Amanda Benson."
She nodded, and i was pretty excited as it began, i had a few changes and by the time it was over, i looked so different.
"Thank you! I say and pay before leaving, i felt very confident with myself now. I drove home and Mom's eyes widened."Amanda, you look different, are you happy?" "Mhm, i nod."Don't worry, i love myself, but my appearance has changed, but not my personality."
Mom smiled."That's good to hear, Sweetie." I nod and go to my bedroom, i was never a popular girl, and hopefully, soon that would change, although beauty was in the inside, like Mom told me.
I turn on my phone and suddenly, Taylor calls me, which surprised me a lot, considering we haven't talked in so long, and i slightly disliked her, for a lot of things. But leaving the past behind me, i answer.
Taylor just told me how i was doing, and i asked how her life was, apparently, Joel and her are engaged, and her baby boy, Brayden, is almost a year old, she is pregnant with her 2nd child apparently.
I'm happy for them, then Max texts me. This made me hapy, although we also haven't talked in a while and i knew he was busy co-parenting, i still got butterflies whenever we talked.
cliche? maybe.
He wanted to meet up, and i agreed, hopefully he still wasn't into taylor anymore, although it has been a while since they broke up. Once i got there, he said,"Wow Amanda, you look.... gorgeous."
I blush."Thanks, you're very handsome." He laughed and we sit down, it felt both right and wrong at the same time. "So, why did you text me to meet up? I asked. He sighed."i wanted to tell you that i love you, always have, at least since me and taylor's breakup, and i think we work better than i did with her, get what i mean?"
My eyes widened, i didn't think this was true actually, considering everything that had been going on in my own personal life and my past with Max. "Me too, i smile, and i lean in, he kisses me and i kiss back.
Is this wrong? I'm not sure anymore.
He smiled."Want to go to my place?" I smirk, knowing where this was going and simply nodded, i drove home then he picked me up, i didn't know what to do, my mind was just telling me i should do this stuff.
Did i REALLY still like Max? that is up for debate.
We went to his place and started to make out, and i softly moaned as he deepened the kiss.
And the rest of the night was 'wonderful.'
By morning, i remembered that i was in his bed, I graduated highschool like a year ago and planned to move out today. I got dressed and smiled."I'm going to look at an apartment today, Max, sorry, can i see you next time though?"
He nodded, and i left.
[TIME SKIP]
"Hey mom, i'm moving out, i blurted."i bought an apartment and now that i started college, i think i've got a life ahead of me." She smiled."I'm proud of you, Amanda, do what makes YOU happy."
I nod, then i move in and etc, although my furniture isn't here yet, it will be tomorrow, and i decide to go do my shift now at work.
Last night...
I started to regret having sex, but i brushed it off, it was full of pleasure, and i liked it, a lot, it felt wrong, though, Taylor and I were friends, and, i slept with her ex? wow.
maybe she's moved on, though, oh wait, she has.
[ANOTHER TIME SKIP]
I plopped into my new apartment, and sighed, looking out the window, i realized how much my life has changed, and my maturity is better than it has been. A lot has happened.
I frown, then decide to go out tonight, i wanted to drink but unfortunately i wasn't 21, however, i had friends who could buy alcohol.
I smirk then dial a number."Willing to buy alcohol tonight?"
Once Clarissa said yes, i felt happy, i wanted some fun tonight and i planned to do just that, i went and changed into a "short" dress and Clarissa arrived a few minutes later. "Bitch, i've got the drinks! She said, a confident smile on her face."And you look gorgeous today!"
I wink."thanks, babe. anyways, come on, let's have our own fun, huh?" She nods as she grabs glasses that i bought earlier and we poured each of us a glass of vodka, and stood in the kitchen.
"So, any spiciness in your life, yet? Clarissa asks. I nod."Just had sex last night." She smirked."Not a virgin anymore? ooh."
"Okay, yeah, it's not that big of a deal, Clarissa."
"Kind of is, i mean, wasn't that on your bucket list?"
I nod."Guess so." I sipped my drink, and she sighed."There's something i have to tell you." I raise an eyebrow as she continued her 'confession' i suppose.
"I think, i'm in love with you."
My eyes widened."What?" We've known each other since babies and she moved away when we were kids and recently moved back, but was she always in love with me? so many questions in my mind.
and how did i feel?