'I didn't mean it, Clary. She is the one who seduce me first and I can't tell no for her. I mean, Clary, it's also your fault. You don't even wan't me to take you. I am also a man with needs. It's been what? 2 years? Scratch that, it's been two and a half year since I wait for you. Why can't you just let me?'
'It's not my fault to taste other woman. But after all of this I still love you Clary. I still want to be with you. And it's not big deal either, it's just one night stand, that's all.'
Aiden's words had been replaying in her mind many times while she sat alone in Creed's Club and drowning herself with the wine.
That jerk! How dare he hurt me! All this time he is just fooling me around. A tear formed in the corner of her eye. She violently wipe the lone tear escaped in her eye.
Why do I cry for him anyway? He's just a dumbass passing by in her life.
"Clary, please stop it. Look at you, you're such a mess. Don't let him affect you. What if he see you hopelessly drinking and crying in yourself?I'm sure as hell, he'll laught at you and mock you. I think, you don't want him to see you like this, hmm?, her best friend, Eizelle, said.
Yes, she's right. She can't let him destroy her system and mind. She need to get herself a grip.
"Yes, Eiz, you're right. He's not worth it." , I said then let a long sigh,"It's just that-I don't know-why do all people left me? What's wrong with me? I'm a good girl and always care and follow what they want me to do. Why? Why? Why? I always question myself but there's nothing and no one could answer me." she sadly sob silently.
"Clary, there's nothing with you. He is just a dipshit who let go of such a beautiful girl. He is just blind for hurting you. And I am here, I'll never ever leave you, okay?Hush now"
I thank God for giving me such a caring best friend, Eizelle, she's always in her side after what happened to her. Now that she remember it again, she just cried loudly and Eiz is just right there hushing and calming her.
It hurts. It really hurts. The pain is suffocating her.
She breathe deeply and compose herself together even if her heart is tearing apart.
When Eiz saw her calm state,she then excused herself to restroom to retouch. They'll go home home now. She thanked Eiz for accompanying her and takinng her home.
After 5 minutes, there're someone who take the seat where Eiz been sitting all along.
"Hi!", a gorgeous man-with headphone in his neck smile sexily with her but she didn't give a damn.
"Snob", he whispered but she heard it. She raised her eyebrow. The man saw that she look at him so he immediately smile widely to her.
"No, I'm not"
"Yes, you are"
Her eyebrow creased"Am not"
"You are"
"I'm not"
The man beside her sigh in defeat and then chuckled" Yeah, yeah you're not. By the way, I'm Jace, you are?"
"Clarianette Azalea" she said
After few minutes,she didn't if it's the alcohol talking but she look at him and said," Why does all of your kind hurt me. They always say they care and love me but in the end they're all just a freaking dumbass who tear me apart." She chuckled coldly," Oh, well, you all just want to take and pleasure you. So what if I can't give myself to you huh?Aiden? Ijust want to cherish my first after marriage. Yeah, I know, I'm such an old-fashioned woman wanting that. You are all jerk. I hate you!"
Before he could speak, Eizelle interupt them."Let's go, Clary."
"Yeah, let's go" she hurriedly stand up and look at Creed then shook her head and run up with Eiz.
"Clary, who is he? He's hot. Maybe he's the one", Eiz teased her. She just realized what she said to him, she blushed. Ohmy! How I wish he didn't hear that!