The timekeeper closes his eyes as soon as he hears my answer. Li Jun's body falls toward me. I wrap my arms around him before we drop on the bed together. I roll him on the bed and take a deep breath.
This is the only quiet moment that I can have with him.
I try to memorize his face. It seems like I will never be this close to him again. I want to be selfish and stay here.
If he dies because of me again, can I live?
I destroyed the past and the future to let him lie a happy life. Even it's without me, he must live a happy life.
"I am sorry." I rest my head on his chest. I hear his heart beating. "The timekeeper has given me a good deal. In this lifetime, you can't be mine. I have to let you go. You already have a son and a wife. There's no place for me even if I stay."
He is breathing while I am not. I can't cry even if I want. My feelings are the only thing that makes me human. I kiss his lips for the last time.
Someone gasps behind me. "What are you doing?"
