Jack had never been so clear-headed when he realized that he was not afraid of mu Yuan's death. Instead, he was afraid of what mu Yuan's death brought to him. When they separated back then, there were still many misunderstandings.
If they didn't meet again in this life, he would live under the same blue sky with him. Knowing that he was well was his second best wish, but what death brought him was the regret of their lives.
His last meeting with mu Yuan was not that wonderful.
These thoughts kept pestering him and made him feel guilty, regretful, and disgusted. Gradually, it reached a dead end. He thought that he was afraid of mu Yuan's death.
Last night, when he was standing in front of the window, he suddenly thought it through.
He was afraid that it was not mu Yuan's death.
