She had always felt guilty, and was unable to get over it. She was unable to forgive and she was unable to forget.
It was as she had said. Everything that happened in the past was because he couldn't stop loving her. But as the victim, she was the one who was choosing not to forgive.
She couldn't stop blaming herself, doubting herself and putting herself down because of Little Lemon's disease.
How could she possibly forgive him if she couldn't even forgive herself?
And now she had to give birth to another child just to save Little Lemon.
Fate was playing a huge joke on them.
What a cruel joke.
This was akin to prying open the bloody wounds in her heart yet again, so that she could relive those nightmares again, forcing her to relive the pain.
Her body wouldn't be able to take the burden of having another child. Her courage had all disappeared during the year she gave birth to Little Lemon.
