Did you ever feel like you want to kill someone or yourself. Thinking horrible things about how to kill someone or yourself. Just want to kill them. I just want them dead. Why couldn't they I understand. Why did everything that come out of their mouth just so hateful. Sometimes I just want to hurt them but instead I hurt myself. It's so painful sometimes.
Okay, I guess you could already guess what side of me that I don't want. The twisted and sickening side. This thought is just... I don't know, horrible I guess. It's eating me. The guilt sometimes is just...(sigh) I don't know what to do.
Sometimes I just want to forget and move on but every single god damn time they make me (sigh) remember. I just want to get rid of this side of me. That's all.