When Aisha was young, she had always cursed the heavens why they must punished her with these shïts. She was forced to kill her mother at the age of three, suffered from PTSD and depression, betrayals from those people who she considered as someone of importance to her, and her only remaining parent died.
What did she do to deserved all these?
What did she do to be punished like this?
But as she heard Lucian's painful past, she felt ashamed thinking like that. One has no rights to complain about the shïts they experienced when there will always be someone out there who experience much worse than you, and turns to be a great person as they are today.
Aisha cupped Lucian's cheek and carress it softly. Lucian gaze at her and put his hand against her. He wasn't crying but Aisha felt her chest tightening as she look at his sorrowful eyes.
"I shouldn't have done it... I shouldn't have left her.... if I didn't then she would've still---" Aisha slammed her lips into his mouth, stopping whatever he is saying.
Lucian was surprise for a moment before returning her kisses. The kiss wasn't out of passion nor it was urgent, it was slow and comforting. It was like, one was taking away the pain from their partner, and calms the other's grieving heart.
The kiss went on for a while before Aisha pulls her lips away from him and rested her head on top of his head while Lucian's face was pressed on top of her breasts, both of them are heaving heavily. Once Aisha regained her breathing, she lifted her gead and pulls Lucian to meet her eyes.
His blue eyes is mesmerizing, especially at this moment when the moon shines upon them, making Lucian's already dark deep blue eyes more... enchanting. And the tears in his eyes that refuse to fall makes it even more beautiful as his blue eyes glistened.
"I have no right to tell you this... since I, too, blame myself for my mother's death but... the past is past. We can do nothing to change it. The only thing we can do is to accept it and move on... and don't let that past hunt us now.
Lucian, I know that heavy feeling in your chest. That feeling of remorse, and those constant thoughts of "what ifs" I understand it all and in all honesty, it sucks but...
Can we move on from that past and forgive ourselves?
Can we continue with our lives without the past hunting us?
Can we just... forgive ourselves?
Can we do that?"
Lucian's strong arms immediately went around her small waists and pulls her closer to him. He breathed in her scent which immediately calm his raging heart. His voice was strained and hoarse, as if stopping himself to broke down at that moment, as he whispers in her ear, "With you... anything is possible."
Lucian paused before giving the shell of Aisha's ear a gentle kiss. "As long as we are together... we can."
Aisha shivers involuntarily, her hands went up to hugged him back. Lucian felt her shivers and a naughty smile formed on his lips. He opens his mouth and traced the outline of Aisha's ear with his tongue before lathing it and nipped her earlobes.
"Lucian!" Aisha gasped in surprise, her nails digging on his back. "Stop it!" She hissed through gritted teeth, fighting the urge to moan as Lucian's mouth trailed down to the junction of her neck and did the same thing he did in her ears.
Sensing that Lucian isn't planning on stopping, Aisha gripped his hair and harshly pulls it away from her neck. Lucian winced as he glares playfully at Aisha but as he sees her cute angry look, and her moisten lips, he couldn't help but to kiss her squarely in her mouth.
When the kiss ended, Aisha look towards the only small window in the kitchen and saw that it was already night. "It's already night." Time sure is fast, she thought.
"Hmm..." Lucian hums as he traced Aisha's lips with his finger. Aisha frowns and bit his finger hard, but instead of getting angry, Lucian's eyes darkens and feels... more aroused than ever. "Then let's go to our villa." He carried her and put her on her feet before entwining their hands together. "There are lots of places here that we can eat. We can grab a bite here before we went home."
Aisha pursed her lips, she was still hesitant eating foods cooked by other people.
Lucian noticed her hesitant and said, "Or, I can cook something instead."
"Okay," she answered, her eyes locked on their entwined hands as they walked side by side. "And for dessert, I want my favorite one."
Lucian grins and nodded as an answer.
They were on their way to Lucian's villa when Aisha suddenly remembers that she forgot to bring her medicines and ointments with her for her wounds and injuries, and for her burn marks. She told Lucian to pull over to the nearest pharmacy. Once they are parked, Lucian wanted to go with Aisha when she sternly told him to stay and that she can perfectly manage.
She bought the medicines prescribed by the Abyss famiglia's doctor when a pack of... condoms caught her attention. One clerk notice her gaze and promotes those stacks of condoms in different sizes, colors, brands.... and flavors. The clerk even went as far as to take out a condom and let Aisha feels it.
Aisha cringed in disgust as she feels the texture of the condom. "This feels disgusting."
And why is she checking condoms anyways!? It's not like she's going to do it with Lucian... right?
Is she not?
"If you don't like condoms then there's also contraceptive pills! Although some pills have side effects but it is definitely effective to prevent unwanted pregnancy!" The clerk's voice was really loud and it already gain lots of odd gazes from the other costumers.
"I don't need it." Aisha deadpanned and turn her back on the clerk, however, she only took several steps before she went back again and asked, "What is the highest quality of birth-control pills?"