It was dark.
I can't see anything.
Where am I?
If I remember it correctly, tonight is my birthday banquet.
Strange, what happened?
"Kristen, you cut your finger again!"
Huh, that voice...?
"Hehe, you know cooking is not my thing, sis!"
"This won't do, a woman should know how to cook!"
"But I'm only ten!"
"And so do I!"
These voices, it belongs to my twin sister and I. Being twins, both of us felt exceptionally connected towards each other. We considered ourselves as our other half.
Kristin was born weak, so she wasn't allowed to go out much to play and she usually spends her time reading books, cooking, and all those feminine lady stuffs that I never understand. While I was the outgoing, adventurous type.
My twin is really nice and lady-like, smart too and strong in her own way. She's.... a complete opposite of me but I don't mind, I am happy for her.
But sometimes it can get a little....
"Kristen, you forgot to memorize the poems again!"
"Sorry, Father."
"It's been a week since I've gave you this book and yet you failed to memorize and understand the meaning of it."
"It's too many, Father."
"You're complaining, now? Kristin memorize all these poems in one day! Why can't you be more like her?"
... tiring. Being compared to her all the times. Being neglected by everyone. Always saying to be more like my twin. It is tiring, alright.
"Hey, Kristen! Mom are going to teach me how to arrange flowers! Want to come?"
"Really? Then I---"
"Kristin, leave your sister alone. I'm sure she has some other plans for today, right?"
"Eh, Mom, please stop lying. I told you Kristen doesn't go to bars, so stop being harsh on her."
"Kristin, my dear, you are too naive."
"Mother---"
"It's true, Kristin, don't be mad at Mom."
"See? Such an unfilial child."
I was so angry. I was mad at my parents, mad at everyone, and even to my twin who did nothing but to protect and care for me. I was also mad at myself for hating my twin.
They are right, I'm a bad, ungrateful, rebel person. That's what they keep saying and so I will be like that.
No one cares about me anyway.
"Let go of me, you bàstard! Don't you know who I am!? My father will sue you for harassing me!"
"Bïtch! We can kill your father! Haha!"
"Just shut up, and enjoy the pleasure we can give you."
"Disgusting pigs! Let go of me!"
"All of you, let go of her this instance."
"Boss Morano!"
"Places such as bars aren't a place for a child like you to wonder around."
"I'm not a child."
"Follow me and I'll take you home. Stop worrying other people for you."
And then I met Morano. Someone who is dangerous, someone whose half of their body is buried into the ground, someone who is accompanied by death, but I couldn't help but to feel drawn in him. Like a moth to a flame.
Other than my twin, Morano was the only person that makes me feel that I'm not... worthless.
"Kristen, how do you know Morano?"
"Huh? You know him too, Kristin?"
"Silly, girl, I have told you countless of times already! Morano was my boyfriend! I even let you see a picture of him and I!"
What is this? This can't be happening. Why? Why is it her again!?
"Kristen, are you alright?"
"Why do you keep stealing the things I want!? It was okay if you steal Mom and Dad's affection but why do you have to steal Morano too!?"
"Kristin---"
"I regret being your twin! I hope you've never been alive in the first place!"
"Kristin!"
And I never spoke to my twin again after that. As days passes by, I've become distant to my twin. She tries to talk to me but I always shut my door to her.
There was one time, Morano called me. I was ecstatic of it but in the end, it left me more broken than I am.
"Kristin broke up with me."
"She did?"
"She didn't tell me the reason why. She's the first ever person I cared deeply. I love her."
"She's not the only girl who can love you, Morano. You just have to---"
"I don't care! She's the only person that I will love in this lifetime."
Morano ask for my help but I obviously didn't help him. Instead, I make it look like that Kristin was seeing someone else, so that Morano will hate her and love me instead.
But I underestimated Morano's love for my twin.
He managed to force our parents to marry Kristin to him. And being the filial daughter she was, she agreed to the marriage.
"I'm sorry, Kristen. I know you love him but I just can't... I tried to leave him for your sake but I---"
"Stand up to your knees and stop crying."
"But Kristen, I---!"
"Shut up, you pretentious bïtch! Just die!"
Mark my words! I'll make your life miserable! I'll steal Morano from you!
"How are you, Kristen? It's been so long!"
"Indeed, I have miss you so much!"
"Me too, I'm glad that we have reconciled. How's Rafe?"
"Psh, still as workaholic and greedy for power."
"Haha, Morano is the same. They are in the mafia, after all. I just hope Aisha won't grow as cold as her father."
"How's that kid, anyway?"
"She just turn three this month but her wittiness is making my head hurt."
"She has both intelligent parents, that's already expected."
"Right, me and Aisha are going to a vacation in December. You can come and bring Rafe."
"Nah, I'm good. But Morano isn't coming with you?"
"He is, but he still have to come back to his famiglia's main headquarters."
"Hmmm, enjoy your vacation."
It will be your last Christmas, Kristin.
"Huh? Why am I suddenly feeling dizzy?"
Before the year ends, Morano will hate you to the core and then kill you.
"Kristen, why are you here?"
"Haha, so you noticed right away that I am not Kristin?"
"Even though both of you have the same face and body, you're completely different from her."
"Hmm, Morano, I may not be as great as my twin, but I am sure that in some aspects, I can be greater than she is."
"Are you crazy!? You are Rafael's wife!"
"But I love you! If it weren't for Kristin then both of us should've be the one together! I should be Aisha's mother!"
"Kristen, don't cross the line!"
"I don't care, I will get what's mine!"
Morning, after that, I thought that Morano will be mine and leave Kristin but he only hated more.
"Fvck it! You drugged me!"
"You're mine, Morano!"
"You're insane!"
"What's so good about my twin!? We have the same face and body so why can't you love me!?"
"You're asking me why I love her!?"
"Mo-morano, sto-stop! You're hurting me!"
"It was because she is not you!"
Morano! How dare you!? After what happened between us!? You're a scüm! You and my twin, both of you will rot in hell!
Wrapping herself with a comforter, Kristen get her phone hiding behind the vintage vase. It was still recording. With an evil smirk on her face, she cut the video from when Morano woke up and strangled her and send the video of her and Morano having steamy s3x to her twin sister.
"Oh, right, she's with Aisha." With an evil thought, Kristen activate the AI chip in Kristin's brain, and have it in killing spree mode.
Anger. Betrayal. Despair. Jealousy Sadness. Unwanted. Worthless.
All of the things I have felt. I will return it to you!
***
Aisha was shaking while watching Kristen's memory from her laptop. Alfred was worried for his Young Lady. If it was because of anger, that Alfred do not know.
In fact, because Alfred had been with Aisha for too long, he knows that his Young Lady isn't as cruel as everyone thought.
In this world of the mafias, for Alfred, Aisha is the kindest person in this cruel world.
Kristen had done too many bad things that is beyond redemption. However, she had a past that made her like that.
But... is it enough excuse to schemed against her twin and destroy her?
"Alfred, please leave for awhile." Aisha orders in a low, dejected tone.
Alfred slump in shoulder, and leaves her alone. His Young Lady is too merciful sometimes, but...
It was her mother who suffers from Kristen. It was also her father who fell into despair.
And both of them are Aisha's bottom line.
[QUESTION: Do you think what Kristen did is forgivable?]