She knows that she'll never be able to hold the children being born because she will be dead once they come out. She should hate them for taking her life and her future but she doesn't. Miyako wanted so much more in life than to die in childbirth. But alas, it was not meant to be. She screamed as the doctors urged her push and cried her strength left her. Miyako felt such fear, such hate, such overwhelming desperation to live but she wouldn't be able to.
She wasn't a main branch member of the clan and not the luckier one of three sisters – one who married into the famous uchiha clan and one who died with the love of her love on the battlefield. Kurama Miyako is a weak, cowardly woman who did not become a kunoichi and who married a branch Kurama male.
The man she married was a shinobi, but he was understanding to her plight and position and treated her kindly. His name was Kurama Keisuke, a man with raven black hair and pale brown eyes. It wasn't the love she dreamt of as a child or the life she wanted, but Miyako was content to live like that.
When she became pregnant for the first time, she and Keisuke were so happy and spent so much time painting the baby room and buying clothes and dreaming of what their child would look like. But then she lost the baby and everything just stopped for her. Keisuke did not blame her or scorn at her like her mother-in-law did. He comforted her, whispered words of love and assured her that the next one would definitely come through.
She believed him.
One by one, one by one, one by one, each child never made it past time month and Miyako fell into despair. Keisuke never blamed her, never hated her, but he always wore that sad smile. And just as they were about to give up, Miyako grew with the child once more. This time it was different, Miyako felt strong, felt happy and the world grew bright and beautiful.
Her uchiha-branch sister came to visit with her husband, and the two had no children after so many years. They requested to adopt her child into their family but Miyako didn't want to give up her child. Keisuke refused rather violently and it was the first time she ever saw her husband so angered. Later that day as she sat down on the rocking chair in the baby room holding the small socks she picked out, Keisuke wrapped his arms around her stomach at pressed his ears against her sweater.
"Do you think it'll be a girl?" He asked, excited like a child.
"I don't know, but I do hope it's a boy so it'll continue your name," Miyako replied.
Keisuke shook his head and his hand rubbed her stomach, "I always wanted a girl."
When the doctor confirmed that she was carrying twins, she and Keisuke were so happy. They bought another crib and discussed names.
"How about Nanashi for a girl and Ryo for a boy," Miyako suggested.
"What if they're both girls? How about we call one girl Mitsuki and the other Aiko, I've always like that name," Keisuke stated as he rubbed her stomach and smiled as he felt a small kick.
"And if it's two boys, we'll call one Kouta and the other one Ryo," Miyako whisper as she pressed her hand on top of Keisuke's and they both felt another kick.
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A single missioned destroyed the happiness she worked so hard for.
When Keisuke left for a mission and didn't return, Miyako felt as though her world was crashing down.
Her mother in law throw her away for being the bearer of the ill fortune
At that time she was heavily pregnant.....she didn't have a place to go
The main branch never gets to find out
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A week later her mother in law died from the heartbreak of her son death
The uchiha branch sister destroyed any and all evidence of her sister being pregnant
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A month after the funeral, Miyako walks in a state of half-life and half-death as she grows weaker and weaker. And then her water breaks and there is so much blood and she is screaming and crying for Keisuke and she is rushed to the hospital.
The child is pulled from her womb and Miyako sighs in relief and sucks in air as she prepares herself for another round. The child is red and wrinkly and wet from the bath water as it is laid beside her and Miyako raises her weak arms and holds the bundle in close and traces the delicate features.
"It is a boy," the nurse says kindly with a hint of sorrow.
Love so fierce filled her heart and Miyako wishes that she would be able to protect her little boy but cries bitterly because she will not be able to.
There is so much pain as the doctor chooses to cut her open to save the child and she sees her sister standing at the door and knows that she has been betrayed. Her other child will be taken from her and turned into a tool and Miyako cries because she is unable to do anything.
She holds her boy close as her stomach is torn open and, " save the child let the mother die" she hears her sister say.
Miyako can barely see but her little boy, her precious child, she wanted to protect him so badly. She would not even be able to name either of them, would not see their first smile, their first step or hear their first word or send them to school or see them grow up. Miyako wanted to cry to the heavens to scream and shout and yell – till the Gods allowed her more time.
Holding her little precious boy close as the girl was pulled from her half-dead body, she pressed a kiss against the baby's forehead.
"How is their chakra?"... Miyako hears a voice of her brother in law ( the Uchiha)
"Both kids are born average but if you ask specifics the boy's chakra is lower than the girl's... but like I said they both are born average", said the doctor
"Sigh, let's take the girl at least she has more talents"
"Please leave, let the mother have some time with her children ", said the doctor
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"Thank you to protect my son", said miyako to doctor
"Sigh... Your son is born with unnatural chakra, he will become a weapon to kill and you know it"
"At least he won't be Uchiha weapon"
"But he will have a hard time "
She knows, Miyako knows her daughter will be protected but her son would be left alone, by himself, with no one by his side.
And so
Don't worry...mama is with you till the end, she will never let you go
I will protect you, with my life, with my death, my sweet children, I will protect you.
Her daughter cries along with her son.
And everything fades.
The sound of their cries sounded like the heavenly choir promised.
Kurama Miyako closes her eyes and smiles and then… nothing.
"Keisuke....see you are finally a father", that was the last thing she muttered as she died with tears in her eyes
[ Kurama Miyako the mother of Ryo and Nanashi, married into branch Kurama clan]