We walk into my apartment and he asks "How long you been in here?" I try to sound calm but my voice cracks "I just moved in today" He looks at the couch then the windows and then asks "Where is you bedroom?" I pull him into a room down the hall on the right and in it is my bed,never been slept on, and a night stand. He looks at me for approval and I nod, He picks me up and kisses me hard with a desire for me. He puts me down on the bed gently and moves his hand up my waist and then he stops to look at me for approval again and I say "If you do any thing I don't like, I will tell you, Okay?" He nods and continues and he takes off my shirt and the his and I stare at ripped abes and body and I say "Let me go to the bathroom really quick, You can get ready and I will to, Just before we begin, Okay?" He nods again and I get up and head for the bathroom in my room and as soon as I close the door I think "I'm Crazy, I'm Crazy I'm Crazy, What Am I Doing?!?!" I take a deep breath and take off my clothes and look into the mirror with my hands on the sink and say to myself "You can do this, My first time was for payback, but I never did it again and never responded to my urges and I think that I've never stopped loving him ever" I take another breath and open the door to see James on the bed just lying down with his eyes closed and I sneak up on him and jump to sit on his stomach but miss his stomach and land on something really hard that goes inside me and say "Mhmmnn" I look at James and he has almost exact expression as me and he is blushing like a just ripe tomato.
We finished and have our clothes back on and we are laying on my bed breathless and sweaty. I say the first thing "Are you hungry, because I am" He looks at me and nods.