I opened my eyes, faking shock and quickly got up to face him. "Nothing sir" I replied, acting scared, "Nothing? I walked in on you touching yourself sinfully and you say nothing? What evil spirit has possessed you? Upon all the preaching in church, all the prayers, this is the part you choose? Look at me when am talking to you. You know what? I will not allow this evil to consume you, he that is in me is greater than he that is of the world. I will pray for you and destroy that which is about to destroy you, it's not by my power, but by the power of the holy spirit, but you must open your heart to accept Christ as your personal lord and savior, for you to be saved, follow me to the sitting room, I shall pray for you" he finished, then turned and walked into the sitting room, while I followed him.
Pray fire! Where was Christ when my parents died? Where was he when my Aunty inserted a carrot into my vagina and took away my virginity, where was he when she started offering me to her friends as kolanut? Where was he when your wife paid me to make her cum an hour ago? Now that I am living the life they exposed me to, you want me to accept christ and stop my sexcapades, hmmmm, the end is just the beginning, for me. I have not even started. I thought myself.
When we got into the sitting room, he told me to sit down and tell him my story, while he sat beside me and held my hands, then I began, "I don't know what is wrong with me, since the age of 16, I have been touching myself, I thought it would stop when I get older but it hasn't, it only got worse, I have inserted different objects into my vagina, the urge never ends, my mind tells me that I need to have real sex before it stops but am scared to do it, I don't want to get pregnant or have an infection, please, help me sir. Help me get better, I don't want to get into trouble because of this and I don't want my Aunty to know, she might send me away and I have nowhere else to go"
I knelt down in front of him, sobbing with reckless abandon, "chaiii! The devil is a very big liar, sit up, my daughter, you are not alone in this battle, I have been a Pastor for 23 years now and there's no spiritual battle I have not won, by the grace of the most high God. It was my spirit that led me to you in the kitchen, I will pray for you and deliver you from the shackles of Satan, immediately" he walked to the shelf near the television and got his bible, then he continued, "when you said you insert different objects into your womanhood, what objects are you talking about?" I quietly replied, "carrot, cucumber, pen, plantain..."
"Wow! Jesus Christ! This is even stronger than I thought" he cuts in, "stay here, don't go anywhere, let me get the anointing oil, the devil is a liar" he said and half ran out. I sat there and waited, I thought about what could possibly happen, what if he walks back in with sister Margaret?
What if he's truly pure and can't be seduced? So many 'what ifs' in my head but then, I had nothing to lose. At almost 19, done with secondary school, with a lot of money saved up in the bank, I could take my sister and go start life somewhere else, this was what life dealt me with, I had to keep surviving, for the sake of my siblings, especially my kid sister that was growing so fast, I didn't want her to be molested like me, I watched her like a hawk and protected her at all times.
I was still lost in thoughts, when I heard footsteps, I looked up to see him walk in with an annointing oil...
I was still lost in thoughts, when I heard footsteps, I looked up to see him walk in with an annointing oil. He told me to kneel down, which I did, then he started praying, calling all the angels from above to come down and wash away my urge and destroy the evil spirit that has taken over me. He prayed and prayed, until I lost track of time and was feeling serious pains on my knees from kneeling down for too long, I looked up at him and noticed how serious he was, I panicked for a slight second, but then I remembered I wasn't suffering from any evil spirit, it was just my Aunty and his wife that messed up my life and heightened my urges with reckless abandon.
I sat down on floor and proceeded to touch myself fiercely, I careless of what would happen, whether he will open his eyes and catch me in the act and tell his wife, didn't matter to me anymore. I wasn't enjoying what I was doing, but it was far better than kneeling down there, getting frustrated. As I was doing it, an idea crossed my mind, I touched him, "excuse me, sir" with a 'worried' look on my face, he opened his eyes and looked down at me, I saw how his eyes registered the shock, he was surprised to see my right fingers inside of me, I went on, "it's getting worse, the more you pray, the more I get extreme urge, it's driving me insane, I am practically messed up as it is, help me, sir" I slowly removed my fingers inside of me, with my eyes fixed on his, I pulled out, like I was teasing him, while carefully glancing below his waist, to see if there was any movement, but it was as flat as a new born baby sleeping, kai.
He dropped his bible on the centre table and sat down, opposite me, he kept staring at me without saying a word to me, like the cat got his tongue, he kept muttering 'blood of jesus' it took me a while to grab what he was muttering, he was barely audible, few minutes later, he spoke up, "This is not a minor battle, your issue has gone really so deep. I was praying for you and your urges were increasing instead of it going away, devil is just a liar, I am a servant of God, and sometimes, he gives his servant such a task just to prove that he alone is the all powerful omnipresent. He has never failed me and he will not see you and fail, Amaka, we shall overco..." "Sir, please"... I cut in "I think I should just look for a decent guy and do it with, my urge never really stops and something tells me that once I do it with a man, this whole thing will subside or even stop, I am tired, really tired, eziokwu. It's not a nice thing that am suffering like this, I want to be normal, I deserve to be normal"
He shook his head in refusal, "God forbid you go meet a man, not now that I am aware of it. I would have alerted my wife to join in the prayers, but knowing how close she is to your Aunt, there's no guarantee that she won't tell her, the less people that knows about this, the better for us, especially for you. I don't want you to be stigmatized, we will not stop fighting, there's nothing God can not do, wipe your tears. Remove your cloth and lay down, let me apply this annointing oil on your womanhood and other areas the devil is using to keep you in bondage" he finished and picked up the oil.
I got up, undressed, laid down as instructed and smiled inwardly, it's about to go down. 'Welcome to my pot of gold, I wish you happy hunting for raw treasures' I said to myself...
To be continued.