His shoulders curled in slightly as he stuttered, "I-I think… my hands are stained with something dirty. I'm scared… I'm scared of mommy hating me and becoming afraid of me if she ever finds out about this…"
Even though Youyou was aware that he had merely given the kill order and that Li Qin and Yun Na were not killed by him, it did not change the fact that he had a hand in their demise.
He was not afraid to kill. Rather, what he feared the most were that his hands would never be washed clean of the sins staining them and that he would become a sinful person, which meant that he was someone whom his mother feared and could be disappointed in.
Back then, the desire to eradicate those heinous women and banish them to hell was brought by his newfound knowledge of the things his step-aunt had done to his mother from Li Dongqiang.